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evilsheep29's Life List
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1. stop being lazy
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2. dye my hair red.
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3. write a novel
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4. travel the world
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5. go to university
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6. Become a vegetarian
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7. perform
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8. go to a rock concert
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9. grow my hair longer
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10. learn to play eletric guitar
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11. kiss in the pouring rain
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12. Visit Japan
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13. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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14. read all of Jane Austen's novels
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15. be more impulsive
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16. be more confident
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17. get my legs waxed
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18. run at least 3 times a week
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19. live in london
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20. figure out what i want to do with my life
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21. Improve my French
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22. read 10 books this summer
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23. try and understand everyone
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24. be a better role model for my sister
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25. tidy my room
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26. pass grade 8 singing
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27. learn to drive
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28. Read the Bible
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29. speak German fluently
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30. breathe helium
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31. receive a letter from Hogwarts apologizing for the late owl but informing me that i am actually a wizard.
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32. find myself
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33. convert to buddhism
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34. become an opera singer
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35. motivate myself
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alright, i did research on the internet about this kind of thing. Yes, it is true, it is borne from low self esteem. It seems like you can never break out of the cycle.
I was saying sorry because i thought (and still do sadly) that I was always getting on people’s nerves or something along those lines. I felt like an incovenience, and that by saying sorry i would be effectively cancelling out my bad points.
What made it worse was that my mum used to shout at me about it saying that i was being “insincere” and that what i said meant nothing…that kind of hurt because i really couldn’t help it..kind of.
It is a problem to an extent, you are holding back, telling yourself that you are wrong all the time is so demoralising. If you are feeling stressed, don’t bottle it up, find someone RELIABLE, not a fairweather friend to talk to.
And i won’t apologise for rambling.
xxx
Alright im not going to be all stupid about this, literally all that happens is that two holes are punched through your lobes and that’s about it. Sometimes you get the scare mongers that go on about how it will really hurt and it takes forever for them to heal, etc. Well, im a bit of a coward, yet i did it. It was fine, you do feel something, but next to nothing.
that’s all there really is to say.
