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evilsheep29's Life List
1. stop being lazy
2. figure out what i want to do with my life
3. Improve my French
4. read 10 books this summer
5. try and understand everyone
6. be a better role model for my sister
7. learn to drive
8. Read the Bible
9. speak German fluently
10. find myself
11. convert to buddhism
12. become an opera singer
13. motivate myself
14. Stop bitching
15. Have a totally different life by this time next year
16. live in london
17. run at least 3 times a week
18. dye my hair red.
19. write a novel
20. travel the world
21. Become a vegetarian
23. go to a rock concert
24. grow my hair longer
25. learn to play eletric guitar
26. Visit Japan
27. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
28. read all of Jane Austen's novels
29. be more impulsive
30. be more confident
31. get my legs waxed
32. Stop saying stupid things when I'm nervous
How I did it: I'm so excited to be at uni. Every day is interesting and challenging and I've changed in a matter of weeks. Choosing the right university for you is essential, and once you've done that, just keep that goal in sight. Read how I did it…
alright, i did research on the internet about this kind of thing. Yes, it is true, it is borne from low self esteem. It seems like you can never break out of the cycle.
I was saying sorry because i thought (and still do sadly) that I was always getting on people’s nerves or something along those lines. I felt like an incovenience, and that by saying sorry i would be effectively cancelling out my bad points.
What made it worse was that my mum used to shout at me about it saying that i was being “insincere” and that what i said meant nothing…that kind of hurt because i really couldn’t help it..kind of.
It is a problem to an extent, you are holding back, telling yourself that you are wrong all the time is so demoralising. If you are feeling stressed, don’t bottle it up, find someone RELIABLE, not a fairweather friend to talk to.
And i won’t apologise for rambling.
Alright im not going to be all stupid about this, literally all that happens is that two holes are punched through your lobes and that’s about it. Sometimes you get the scare mongers that go on about how it will really hurt and it takes forever for them to heal, etc. Well, im a bit of a coward, yet i did it. It was fine, you do feel something, but next to nothing.
that’s all there really is to say.