Queen kaz Dancing




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Queen kaz Dancing's Life List

  1. 1. "Clean sweep" my life to 100%
    8 entries . 24 cheers
    30 people
  2. 2. lose 100 pounds
    21 entries . 21 cheers
    1,755 people
  3. 3. Spend More Time with God
    3 entries . 21 cheers
    60 people
  4. 4. exercise regularly
    12 entries . 19 cheers
    10,558 people
  5. 5. Get organized
    7 entries . 12 cheers
    6,086 people
  6. 6. manage my Bipolar disorder
    7 entries . 37 cheers
    149 people
  7. 7. list 50 women little girls should admire instead of symbols of stupidity and weakness
    10 entries . 18 cheers
    125 people
  8. 8. learn to sew
    1 entry . 15 cheers
    3,641 people
  9. 9. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
    16 entries . 14 cheers
    7,171 people
  10. 10. go to Japan
    11 cheers
    3,334 people
  11. 11. get a cheap bicycle
    2 entries . 10 cheers
    1 person
  12. 12. Practice Yoga
    1 entry . 9 cheers
    4,105 people
  13. 13. Go on a real vacation
    2 entries . 6 cheers
    51 people
  14. 14. list 43 men i wouldn't kick outta bed
    21 entries . 4 cheers
    57 people
  15. 15. Get Punked Out to the nines, decked in all of my fave alternative gear, then go to the grungiest pub in town on "Metal" night, sit in the back with a glass of oj and knit.
    1 entry . 15 cheers
    1 person
  16. 16. Do a 20km hike with my scouts
    1 person
  17. 17. Replace all the lightglobes with eco friendly ones
    1 entry . 5 cheers
    1 person
  18. 18. Save 50'000 in 5 years.
    3 entries . 3 cheers
    1 person
  19. 19. Save up and get a spa membership
    1 person
  20. 20. learn to play the fiddle
    192 people
  21. 21. Work smarter not harder and only work the hours I get paid for
    1 person
  22. 22. grow an herb garden
    669 people
  23. 23. Get a tattoo
    20,306 people
  24. 24. Have Halloween in Canada
    1 person
  25. 25. Have the courage to visit the cemetary more often
    1 entry
    1 person
  26. 26. Have my house constantly visitor ready
    1 person
  27. 27. Know I am doing my best 100 % in my job
    1 person
  28. 28. Finish the bathroom renovations
    1 person
  29. 29. Live on a tight budget
    2 people
  30. 30. Stop lending money to friends and never asking for it back
    1 entry
    1 person
  31. 31. walk 3 times a week
    19 people
  32. 32. redesign my closet
    1 person
  33. 33. Buy an investment property
    2 entries . 1 cheer
    79 people
  34. 34. Convince the Robots that the Personal Challenge should result in a reward if accomplished not a consequence if it's not
    1 entry . 5 cheers
    6 people
  35. 35. pay off my credit cards
    1 entry
    1,132 people
  36. 36. Be a caring and patient wife
    1 person
  37. 37. Look at the plusses and ignore the minuses
    1 entry
    1 person
  38. 38. Be a great Godmother
    1 entry
    6 people
  39. 39. Become good enough at Guitar hero drums to play with my husband and his friends
    1 entry
    1 person
  40. 40. Save for our Kitchenmoon
    1 entry
    1 person
  41. 41. Take more photographs of people I love
    1 person
  42. 42. Scrapbook all those bits and pieces
    1 entry . 3 cheers
    1 person

How I did it
How to start a small business
It took me
1 year
It made me
Happy but stressed


Recent entries
Have the courage to visit the cemetary more often
If I dont see it its not real 2 days ago

I lost my best friend in 2002, he fell to his death in a freak and tragic accident. he was my first love, and 2 weeks ago my best friend lost hers.

It has brought up every emotion I have been suppressing for years. We had planned to get married, sure, we were kids, but kids in love plan dumb things.

Last weekend I got married, and it was tough not to think about him all day. I love my (new) husband so much, I feel so complete when I am with him, but I miss my friend so much and a part of me cant believe he was not the one standing beside me.

When he died it was weird. We had broken up almost a year prior, both dated other people, but with the loose plan that when I finished high school we would see how we went. He died at the beginning of my last year. 6 weeks before he died was his 21st birthday, where we danced, kissed, got drunk and talked about how we would be together forever.

I stood on the hill at the cemetery and watched them lower him in. I have not been to that part of a funeral service since. Until last week, I had been to his grave 3 times.

The day after my wedding I went to his grave. His parents had put a picture of him on the headstone, which always kills me because I took the photo they used. I don’t know why it doesn’t make me happy to know that the smile is for me, I guess its because I wont ever see that smile again.

I gave him a flower left over from our centrepieces, and chatted about the wedding. I cried and cried and cried. I left him a piece of cake. Odd I know, but Im odd and so was he.

On Tuesday we buried our friend. As I said, he was my best friends first love, and so, despite the fact that I never do the cemetary bit, I went to support her.

Watching him be lowered in to the ground was horrible. I felt angry that he had been so fucking stupid as to not look at the road. I was angry at min for not looking where he was going and falling through the roof. I was mad at the people that organised the shitful music at the funeral. Then I looked over and saw a pelican flying and knew it was okay.

I want to think of my passed friend, (and now, unfortunately friends) fondly and shared my life with them, not get pissy at their graves.

Thats my point, sorry, and thanks for the rant.



to overcome jealousy
Once upon a time... 2 days ago

I used to be a chronicly jealous person, until one day I realised that I have some things that the people I was jealous of really envied.

We all want what we cant have, but I no longer have emotion over this coveting.



Find the perfect wedding dress
I felt pretty 3 days ago

Even though most people probably thought I looked like a heffer, I felt like a queen. So fuck em.



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