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fateaccompli

Race: human. Culture: yes.



I'm doing 39 things
  

fateaccompli's Life List

  1. 1. find a way to make a difference with my life by understanding other people who made a difference with theirs
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  2. 2. realize everyday things that I am clueless about and (re)educate myself on those matters
    6 entries . 11 cheers     		1 person
  3. 3. live my life by answering this question every day: "what would you do if you knew you could not fail?"
    2 entries . 23 cheers     		69 people
  4. 4. have a house with hidden rooms and trap doors, and some kind of secret tunnel
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  5. 5. post random thoughts, observations, and events of the day...
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  6. 6. decorate the back windows and sliding glass door with tempera paints
    1 entry . 9 cheers     		1 person
  7. 7. do a mural on the wall in my backyard
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  8. 8. make 3 birdhouses for the garden
    4 entries . 17 cheers     		1 person
  9. 9. sit down with a college advisor THIS FALL and commit to a matriculation program
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  10. 10. Write something. Anything. Sentence. Paragraph. Short Story. Novel. Epic. Anything.
    4 entries . 31 cheers     		249 people
  11. 11. be able to write professional-sounding book reviews on occasion
    2 entries . 7 cheers     		1 person
  12. 12. write non-stop for 30 minutes a day at least 5 days a week
    2 entries . 22 cheers     		1 person
  13. 13. plant a tree
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  14. 14. cultivate peace
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  15. 15. preserve endangered land
    1 entry . 19 cheers     		1 person
  16. 16. tear down Guantanamo Bay
    3 entries . 11 cheers     		2 people
  17. 17. Offer a Microloan to someone on the Kiva site
    1 entry . 11 cheers     		47 people
  18. 18. write my family's biographies
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  19. 19. read all the books on my lists, type them up in my reading journal, and catalog them with LibraryThing
    47 entries . 5 cheers     		1 person
  20. 20. learn Russian
    7 entries . 12 cheers     		2,031 people
  21. 21. learn German
    5 entries . 12 cheers     		3,710 people
  22. 22. learn how to play chess
    4 entries . 13 cheers     		315 people
  23. 23. keep a sketch journal
    2 entries . 15 cheers     		10 people
  24. 24. learn to play violin
    3 entries . 8 cheers     		183 people
  25. 25. start painting again
    1 entry . 12 cheers     		421 people
  26. 26. learn how to make paper airplanes
    2 entries . 10 cheers     		3 people
  27. 27. keep a dream journal for one year straight
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  28. 28. get all my dental work done
    1 entry . 10 cheers     		46 people
  29. 29. try one new recipe each week from "the gluten-free gourmet cooks fast and healthy"
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  30. 30. trade something on craigslist
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  31. 31. Eat a durian
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  32. 32. do Yuletide
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  33. 33. finish my degree
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  34. 34. take a vacation
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  35. 35. understand, support, and celebrate my children the way they are
    27 entries . 10 cheers     		1 person
  36. 36. read and write more poetry
    4 entries . 7 cheers     		4 people
  37. 37. become TEFL certified
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  38. 38. list three things every day that made me happy
    12 entries . 3 cheers     		296 people
  39. 39. learn how to comfortably hold a conversation with people I don't know well, and practice this ability
    1 entry . 1 cheer     		1 person
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list three things every day that made me happy (read all 12 entries…)
Monday 1 day ago
  1. son trying and liking sushi
  2. house being moderately clean and neat
  3. daughter super excited about going to the beach
  4. having sushi, and pad thai, and shishkabobs the past few days after not eating out in a long while
  5. finding a possible way to refinance which is much more affordable than what we’d seen so far
  6. TTC’s Literary Modernism course, and its surprising content. I am still reeling from it, and will have to listen to it again after my brain has settled down again
  7. big one: the autumn ash tree in the backyard finally put leaves out this year. I had had the horrible impression that it had died, and was hoping and praying otherwise. I love trees, I love that tree, and it’s one of the few plants that has kept trucking under my apparently horrible gardening management. I was extremely relieved to see it revive.

maybe I shall make find a little kodama) figure to take care of it.

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Post random thoughts, observations, and events of the day... (read all 119 entries…)
my mind, ideas, are not at all coherent right now 4 days ago

so this will probably make more sense than usual. ;)

just what is on my mind: this still, and how to reconcile the polarities that make up my reality, my existence, my self.

in that last post, I had the image of me connected to the world not directly but via other people: I was connected to other people, and they were connected to the world. as I told DanT1999 later, maybe the problem (or part of it) is that I have no direct connection to the world myself.

I wonder if that’s even true, and, if it is, what it means and what I should do about it.

maybe the problem is that I see other people as being the world, or that I see myself in all those other people, and don’t want to lose connection with that.

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list three things every day that made me happy (read all 12 entries…)
Thursday and Friday July 3 &4 4 days ago

Thursday

  1. taking a long walk with the dog while listening to (and understanding, yay!) Russian.
  2. daughter in the bathtub, holding the showerhead up to her ear it was off, thank you, saying, “Hi. Hello.”, and then giggling hysterically.
  3. soon after my bath, I got out to find a most unappealing mess in daughter’s room. I was trying to clean her off, and she didn’t want me too, and it was getting all over me and the bathroom, in addition to her and her room. I was very cross with her, and slammed the package of wipes down on the counter. my son was in the backyard outside the window and heard it; it sounded like a slap. he immediately yelled, “Mom, no! Don’t hit (her)! That’s not nice!
    Say you’re sorry!” It just made me so proud of him for standing up for her and protecting her though I had just slammed something down, even though he was completely put out with her at the time too. he’s grown into such a nurturing and responsible guy.
  4. husband bringing home two huge containers of the most wonderful tabouli, and letting me have one all to myself. :D

Friday

  1. son has been saving up for five weeks to buy a Leapster today. he was so excited this morning which is why husband actually bought it yesterday, so we could give it to him when he woke us up at 5:30 wanting to go to Target – it’s nice to start the day that thrilled.
  2. daughter has been using the computer again. she hadn’t for months, so I moved it to a different part of the living room, and now she is interested again. also, she has had no trouble whatsoever wearing her seat belt in the car since school has been out.
  3. having my own room as a retreat where I can lie down and read or cover my head with the pillow and pretend to disappear. much easier to do there than on the couch.
  4. many emails and messages over the last several days from friends and schnoosels. :D
  5. the weather being rather nice, especially in the evenings.

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