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Our Grammy died this afternoon. She had one last bad health bout and that did it. I am happy that I have had this goal because it pushed me to remember to do little things like write a letter or make a phone call. And I will always treasure the few visits we managed to make out there over the last few years. While I will always wonder if I could have done more of any of the above I do not regret the efforts that I did make and they were certainly better than before I put up this goal. I think I put it up when she was still able to visit us out here! Grammy will be missed. Hopefully we will make it out for the funeral.

I want to continue to do this for my local Grandma but couldn’t bear to leave up the goal that included them both. At this point I don’t think I need to have a specific goal to remember to contact her. I have done it many times that I haven’t logged here, anyway, so it’s more second nature by now.

Here is a picture of me as a baby with my Grammy and Pap Pap (he has been gone many, many years already) and my two cousins. My Grammy never did remarry and now she will be able to see him again, and also my cousin Johnny, who was one of her favorites ;)

1. What did I learn last week?
I am making my fear come true (#18) by making excuses and sabotaging my own efforts.

2. What was my greatest accomplishment over the past week?
I sat down and really did kid feedback yesterday. Just a few more to finish tonight.

3. Which moment from the last week was most memorable and why?
None. Isn’t that sad?!

4. What’s the #1 thing I need to accomplish this week?FINISH kid feedback.

5. What can I do right now to make the week less stressful?
Plan some meals.

6. What have I struggled with in the past that might also affect the upcoming week?
Making excuses not to work out. I have something on Tuesday AND Wednesday. But I can still get in a workout on Wed.

7. What was last week’s biggest time sink?
At work, it was doing any little teeny task before just sitting down and taking a bite out of a big task. Then I end up having to take the big task home.

8. Am I carrying any excess baggage into the week that can be dropped?
I can lost weight. I HAVE lost weight in the past.

9. What have I been avoiding that needs to be done?

10. What opportunities are still on the table?
Halloween Bazaar, eBay business, rental business, new position at work, Costa Rica, so many! So, so many!

11. Is there anyone I’ve been meaning to talk to?
A lawyer regarding some issues with the potential rental business.

12. Is there anyone who deserves a big ‘Thank You’?
Ginny. Have to organize that.

13. How can I help someone else this coming week?

14. What are my top 3 goals for the next 3 years?
Get to goal weight (140). Travel. Be financially secure.

15. Have any of my recent actions moved me closer to my goals?
Goal weight: Renewing my focus. Will go to the Y after this. Tracking my food for today.

Travel: Checked with Fred re: it’s still ok to go to CR if the new job works out. Feeling confident that it is all just fine.

Financial security: Have proposed a planning meeting with Shelly & Susie re: Halloween Bazaar.

16. What’s the next step for each goal?
Weight: Track food. Work out today, tomorrow (rball with Lynn), Wednesday (Y or run if nice), Thursday.

17. What am I looking forward to during the upcoming week?
School is wrapping up. Even though there is so much to do, it’s nice because at the end of the year it’s just finishing up, not finishing up something and ALSO starting up something else.

18. What are my fears?
I will continue to try to lose weight and will continue to fail. I will bite off too much with the business ideas and they will flop.

19. What am I most grateful for?
To be able to even consider starting a business. To have the tools, money, hutzpah to pursue something.

20. What can I do to make life more beautiful?
Call people!!!

I am giving up on this goal after a very long time of not being able to do so. I had to face facts a few months ago when I learned that my niece is starting to work on becoming an interpreter. I was intensely jealous when I first learned this.

But then I started to think about doing it again myself and found the whole prospect dreadful. I knew I would have to do so much to polish up my language skills, relearn vocabulary, reestablish connections, be willing to work for crap pay to break in, etc. Plus the metro area market is hard to get into and I tried several years ago when I was at my prime, language-wise and also had many connections.

I have so many other ideas for businesses and directions I could take this life . . . putting in the time to again achieve the language quality I would need to be an interpreter is probably not something I will do. I am ready to pass along some of my materials to my niece and wish her the best. It was not in the cards for me and I have found many, many other interests that also satisfy me and can be a fulfilling (and frankly, probably much easier) career for me.