fifi_le_fume

I’m working full steam on this goal. I cleared out all the dust mites under my bed. removed all wall portraits so that change them up and bring new life into my room. I went through my closet and cleared out clothing that I can’t stand wearing anymore. It’s amazing how clothing has such a way of bringing memories back. It felt good because some of the clothing that I got rid of was in good condition, but just brought back ho-hum or sad memories of the last time I wore them, that I can;t look at them anymore. I don’t like the way they make me feel. So I did the best thing I could do, remove them from my closet and give them to charity. Now I have new room for new clothes that i can wear to have better memories in. I wounder if I am the only one that remembers every piece of clothing that one wears during a moment in there life. Like, I can remember eaxtly what wore on a particualr date with an ex or something. and those clothings, harmless like a t-shirt or something just bring those memories of what a jerk or how sad something was that the best thing to do is never to look at them again

For some strange reason, every time I set my mind to look for a new job, my company promotes me. Not a bad problem, but I’m still looking for that new type of change in my life. I have been an Editor at my place for a little over a year. I remember when I took this position I mentally told myself I will give it one year and I will stay till the RTF. Once that is done I can be free. The time is now. I have finished the RTF successfully. I am now in the midterm section of my 5th semester in grad school ( 1 more full semester to go). I remember why I decided to go to grad school. To get out of here. I believe in myself and know how much potential I have and this place just doesn’t tap into that. Not doing your full potential drains you in a sick way. You think you have all this energy to spare since your not being used to your full potential, but you don’t you feel drained probably because you losing desire and drive.

So my action plan. Focus on finding a new job that fits my requirments, but that that the search for a new one doesn’t drain me or leave me discouraged. I will look at only 5 job boards. I will look on M, W, F. foo no more then 1 hour in total. Whatever job that interestes me I will give myself 2 nights to make time to write out my CC and Resume for it. after I hit send I will not dwell, but think positive thoughts.

My requirments that it not a NPO. Pay’s more then what I make, and is a mid size company (no Boutique) The job responsabilities will be exciting and what I went to school for.

I have no idea why this has peaked my interest. I think it’s curiosity on how high I can go or something. I think to do this one needs to have some strengh in their upper arms, which is why I have held back until I feel that my powerflex classes at my gym have done me good. I think for what my original goal is, a one day experience to see how difficult it is will do me nicley. So I challenge myself to sign up for a one day orientation and see how it feels. I will do this by Nov. 30, 2009.