fighterpilot

it has been 5 weeks or something like that now. I had a huge strugle tonight but i concoured. First i was in the spa with a few friends and they all left and i didnt feel like getting out seeing as how its at my house (first mistake) i had a big ich on my leg so i pulled of my shorts (second mistake) then it got errect. So i turned on the jet (third mistake) then my penis hit the jet and something in my mind said keep it there just like the good old days. it was there for litterally 2 seconds and I HEARD THE LORD SPEEK TO ME!!! He ordered me. He said get on your pants NOW turn off the jet and flee from the water. I did azacly what he said and got very little if not any feeling at all. like not even the start of an orgasm. I found out the thing that triggers the urge to do that is when girls say they masturbate. Because instintly an immage pops in my head that i cant get rid of and i think (o so it cant be bad she does it and she didnt even know what sex was till this year and she just tryed it a few weeks ago and shes a super good christian) thats the kind of stuff that triggers it because it makes like the guilt in my head go away

one thing i learned. Drvie normal!!! dont stress its super easy.

I take my driving test today…im so nervous but i know i can pass. If i just drive normal. Everyone says i can pass and will so im pretty confident at times and not at others.