flutemegan

I am going to school for music… but I need something as a backup and I have always been interested in nursing. CNA I guess is a good place to start but I am nervous!!

I am a music major at my school but I play the flute. I have two dreams/goals in my life that will be difficult to reach- have a baby and learn to sing. I just emailed a voice teacher today, I am ready to step into the room and sound horrible in front of a professional. I think this will boost my confidence, help my breathing, and maybe qualify me to sing in a choir :)

People are always telling me that the reason I have social anxiety is because I overanalyze things that really were never meant to be important. I think that I’m doing the right thing by taking people seriously- if someone says “You don’t know what you’re doing today” then instead of thinking “well, maybe they are in a bad mood, and they are just judging quickly because i made one tiny mistake”, I think… “oh my god they are right. I hate being here and since I don’t know what I’m doing I think I’ll go do something else that I’m good at.” This is basically how I came to quit my job. I feel that I need help but I want to overcome this myself, because I know once I get over the hump it will be simple.