flyingonmyangelwings

I’m happy to report that even though this is a quality that you have to work on every day…i have been making some improvement…..baby steps but i’m happy with myself for trying…and as difficult it is for me to say want i REALLY mean i’m and I will.

This question, have been following me for a long time, and i tried everything to forget it, shake it off, put it in a box and bury it, but no.. no luck…so my only option.. face it

But this is the hardest part…and i have tried a lot of different methods to figurte out, books, tapes, prayer, communicating with my angels…and i know there a talking to me im just deaf to there cry cause i cant hear them, or maybe it’s just i’m not on the same channel as they are….

Bottom line is, i see my life go by every day and i feel it’s a waste cause i havent reach my full potential… i know for a fact i’m capable of better i just dont know where i should be investing my time and effort cause i have many interests…like jack of all trades master of none…that’s me….

Be able to say what i really think about every and anything at any giving time…I’m a very introverted person and so it’s easy for me not to say what i think or say what i really want, but @ 33 is hard to keep living like this, because i’m the only one that actually suffers while everyone one else is going on with their life happily and unaware of my feelings and frustations…The last straw for me was a couple of nights ago a friend came over to visit, it was late and i was’nt feeling very well and he didnt get the hints to leave…so at some point I fell asleep and when i got up he was on my couch asleep (or pretendind to be) and as i watch him i was thinking to myself why cant i tell this XXXX to get off my couch and get out of my house, cause is late and i want to go to bed, instead i felt compelled to be nice especially cause it was raining…. but what i really wanted to say was get the hell out…..