flylikepaper

I have tried multiple times. Some attempts lasted weeks, others months, some days. Why did they end? People criticizing me, cravings, feeling like the odd-one-out, or slipping up and saying “wow screw it I am a failure.”
Yet every day I think about how good I felt being vegan. I loved it. More energy, regularity, no stomach aches, no pimples, sweat that didn’t smell… who woulnd’t like these benefits?
Right now my stomach hurts so so so bad because a bunch of us went and had ice cream. Now if I go run I will feel horrible and that’s no fun.
I go to college soon and I feel like it will be easier to be vegan there.

How do you guys deal with people looking at you like you are crazy???? That’s all I am scared of. It’s something I will just have to learn to handle. I have to be confident enough in those social situations.

I think being vegan for me is going to be a big step in becoming the person I want to be! I want to go for greatness! I want to be fabulous!

I drink very seldom. When I do drink it has been binge-drinking- which is worse than only a few drinks a day. Alcoholism runs in my family so I know I need to stay away from it.
I don’t smoke.
I drink coffee, which technically is a drug… so do I stop having caffeine too?

I want to get down to 115 pounds, maybe 110- optimal. Yet I NEED clothes now before I go to school. Tomorrow I will buy jeans, a nice outfit (aka a skirt and top) and a nice jacket. Also some new underwear. When i lose weight I can survive in the jeans hopefully and just purchase cheaper tops somewhere.