promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you.
-christian d. larson
“losing vision, lost her sight.
it is a feeling, once thought is manifest;
touch, it’s tangible.
pain is no more real,
unless real is the person to witness strain.
it is truth though,
that once life is shared,
it seeks a being from which sharing comes.
and when sharing does not knock;
to see, to feel,
means all the less.”
“the silence is more than the everything we cannot articulate.
in silence, the unimaginable dream takes flight.”
[my art is words… sharing them makes me uncomfortably vulnerable.]
what is beauty? given the proper eyes:
deer strides across the painted lines, from leafy wilderness to concrete madness.
and how they run in pairs; a deer, a doe.
street cleaners washing away the dust, mindlessly flushing away little specs of us.
where does it go? do we really dissolve so fast?
and what a familiar smell that is, home at last.
lonely mess, loss of mind, a spring breeze through the window.
sunlight as your wake up.
mornings mean more, who do you think of first?
you’re always aware of what you don’t have.
it’s a fist fight, bruises taking the shape of puzzle pieces.
they help re-trace your steps.
i’d like to see the curl of your lashes in the morning.
can we have it all? youth gifts us with uncertainty.
—would u read this in a book? would it mean something to you? would it give your heart pangs, make you angry or strong? make you feel something, other than yourself?
just want to know if i fit in between pages, or just in the corners of my mind.
i want it all.
i feel it all.
i don’t want to settle.
can we really have everything in our dreams?
i have to hope.
this is a dream that i’ve never really given the time to, something that takes more effort than i have been putting into it.
my camera was broken by someone at a party. i’ve been saving for other things, but i’d really like a new camera. a digital SLR would be ideal.
i haven’t asked for it… i’m scared of the inadequacies that will accompany my snaps.
photography is one of those areas which i have great expectations and always seem to fall short when the film is developed. i would like a photographing partner to teach me things.
pictures have so many possibilities of effecting, i want to effect someone, some way, some day.
22. “Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality”
23. “Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other”
24. “Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon”
25. “Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks”
all by the Dalai Lama :)
the goal: run 30mins atleast 4 days a week.
i’ve recently been examining other employment opportunites and this goal came to my attention when speaking to one of my friends.
she said, “you should write, just write.”
“but who would read what i have to say?” i responded.
that hardest part is believing in myself. the hardest part is the fear of not measuring up. my writing has been lazy lately. self-sabotaging myself in this area? maybe thats the case.
i have to write more. i’ll start from there….
the most important thing i learned this week:
im bad at transitions, endings, forks in the road.
we always want what we don’t have right? transitions, endings, forks in in the road all leave me feeling stuck in the middle. longing for what i had and uncertain about what is before me. does self awareness make you any a better self than when you were naive? hope is there to tell me yes. i am getting better, every day, every month, every year.
my birthday is quickly approaching and i’ve already begun thinking of all i’ve learned in the last year.
make a wish, and place it in your heart;
anything you want; everything you want.
do you have it?—good.
now believe it can come true.
you never know where the next miracle is going to come from;
the next smile; the next wish come true.
but if you believe that it’s right around the corner,
and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it,
to the certainty of it,
you just might get the thing you’re wishing for.
the world is full of magic.
you just have to believe in it.
so make your wish.
do you have it?—good.
now believe in it with all your heart.
...not my words, but they mean so much to me!
i may be too afraid to actually let this happen.
from multiple ‘texts’ .... great words come from many sites
“the sea’s only gifts are harsh blows, and occasionally, the chance to feel strong. now, i don’t know much about the sea, but i do know that that’s the way it is here, and i also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong, but to feel strong. to measure yourself at least once. to find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions, facing the blind, deaf stone alone, nothing to help you but your hands and your own head.” – alexender supertramp
“i had a thought, on the way home from the rock field, that things we don’t know about a person are the things that make them human, and it made me feel sad to think that, but sad in that reassuring way that some sadness has, a sadness that says welcome home in twelve different languages.”
“because it’s not love to be static like the desert, nor is it love to roam the world like the wind. and it’s not love to see everything from a distance like you do. love is the force that transforms and improves….because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are.”
“you measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you” – carter
“sometimes the most illuminating pages on the artistic process have been written by minor artists, who achieved modest effects but knew how to ponder their own processes.”
document improvement… evidence you have done it, that you can do it!
up to 5k on a regular basis!
i love the high of running.
i wish my joints were stronger. but, i can turn back the hands of time if i keep it up.
ps. need a running partner!
im learning that i learn lazily, at times.
keep my brain moving. stay focused.
don’t just read words, feel them.
finding myself, just being myself.
a few questions here and there, but nothing absurd.
people show you who you are best…
i want to be more. i want to be the most.
i have plenty of time to continue the search.
the other day, i felt like i could have been reading my life from a book. the pace of my steps, the crash of the glass-like ice beneath my feet, leaving my prints behind, with my book, on the bench, smiling, sharing, laughing, loving, dreaming…..
i would have read it, but i lived it. it was magnificent.
currently deciding on the need vs. want
do i need someone? do i want someone?
there are great people out there, i know.
and i’m slowly realizing i am one of them.
i’m not sure if love happens when you line up certain variables. i think it just happens. you just feel something extraordinary for someone.
this doesn’t happen on the first date, im sure. as much as i wish i knew if i should pursue… i’ll try to ride the wave.
i’ve found my drive again.
i means the most when you learn about humanity, about yourself. books won’t always have the answers, or even the right questions when it comes to that.