I was doing some research online last night, on healthy recipes(trying to get myself out of this ugly eating ditch). I was getting down on myself, because while in a forum, with stick skinny girls giving each other advice on how to be more stick skinny, I started to compare myself. What an awful idea.
I have never been fat… as in obese. Chubby? Yes. My brother never fails to point that out (who cares? He has no friends anyway). But these girls on the website were really bringing me down… they all had pictures of how thin they were, and “Look how fat I am!” as a comment. It made me physically sick! I was thinking that lately, how my self esteem has been low because of the extra poundage I have been packing…
I realized later that trying to compare myself to these girls was not only a bad idea, it was being just plain stupid. The girls on this site were obviously suffering from SOMETHING. They were hurting themselves and their bodies, and even looking at that in an even SLIGHTLY positive light is what causes me to feel like I need to even lower myself to their level. I dont. They have issues, serious ones. I really hope they find themselves some help..
I realized that not loving who you are and what you look like was those girls initial problem. Soon it morphed in their skinny little heads that they were fatter than they are and they just… hated themselves. I just wanted to write this entry to let myself and everyone know: Though we will continue to strive to be at a healthier weight… We are all beautiful. Just remember that when you are down on yourself. We are all beautiful people, no matter what shape, size or form we come in.
Good luck guys. Stay strong, and stay positive. Love yourself, love your friends, and love your bodies!
xoxo, H.
