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I finally just gave up careing. He’ll never care. Never.

Just imagine peoples faces when they see a white girl pumpin’ her hips like shakira. oh, they’ll be amazed!

it’s useless. it’ll never work.

yesterday i completly dissapointed myself. oreos? what the hell. ugh. fat legs.

yesterday i completly dissapointed myself. oreos? what the hell. ugh. fat legs.

Ugh today. Today today today. Well, I did very good with food up untill about 1/2 hour ago. I consumed AROUND 775 calories today, not including fruit. I’m really mad at myself, it’s only 3:06pm. Ughhhh!

Well, today I realized so far I haven’t atten that bad. Breakfast I had fruit salad my mom made for me, and a 90 calorie chewy bar. Mmm 1.5g’s of fat! Lunch I had my 90 calorie special K packets(deliciouse,2g’s) and a little salad. When I got home I realized I was hungry, so I had one banana and a dryed apricot. I hope I can keep it up!

Good luck, everyone! by the way.. special k is absoluttly amazing, and no-fat +soy milk is acutally good.

Weight now: 132.

The #1 absolute thing I need to do. I’m starting today. Wish me luck!

I honestly can’t tell you how bad of a friend I am to my best friend. I will change this. I need her trust back more then anything. And after 4 years, she never gave up on me.

he’s a sweetheart, but i show no respect. i must change this, asap!

God help me. anyone, help me. every day i look at myself in discrace. who have i become? someone i don’t love. if i could tell you how many times i’ve tryed to loose weight and how many times i’ve just gained, boy it wouldn’t of been enough. one day i’ll show everyone. and i can’t wait. i can’t!

and i couldn’t tell you how much everyday i think of the words, “maybe if she lost weight, i’d be with her again”.. runs threw my head. please help me get threw this. i hate him for this. but at the same time, i love him with all of my heart.