I was learning Russian but then I realised I wouldn’t want to live there due to the homophobia, racism, heteronormativity, corruption, etc. It’s still really beautiful but I’d rather invest in something more useful.
To prepare for moving to a superlative country like Norway or something, or learn Spanish because it’s widely spoken and useful in terms of travel and interaction?
I got a 78 for Academic Communication and 75 for Philosophy, these are both Distinctions, but I do not feel comfortable saying my first semester was successful. I think the marks are both more than I deserve and less than I wanted. I think I do not deserve the marks and the first was just due to being a medium fish in a pool of illiterate fish who aren’t being unfairly advantaged like me (unwilling teacher’s pet) and the second mark is only just a Distinction because I know words good sometimes and any good was a result of mania and not sustained effort. I did not do my best work and forgot things too quickly and didn’t do all my reading and listening for Philosophy, which I really cared about but couldn’t keep on top of.
I was behind by like week 3 and I’m really scared about next Semester in which I have 3 units. Hopefully being full time will kick me into gear and caring will kick me into gear but I thought that about Philosophy and I was euphorically infatuated but I still couldn’t get my stuff together.
A big challenge will be saying no to my friends and boyfriends when I am consumed with guilt about being a bad girl/friend