I had a conflict today with what people may think of me. My boyfriend thinks I am “dick” for quitting my job. In his terms I believe that means pathetic. I did it anyway. And I do not regret going against what he thought, but I am just disappointed that I have let it bother me so much. What matters is that I am happy and as long as I am not truly hurting anyone, then all is well.
This goal will take a while to really get done.. but I will continue on.
I have officially quit my pathetic dead-end job! Onward to the next!
(Best notice ever of course- letter with key in envelope: I have decided to resign effective immediately. Send my paycheck in the mail.)
I’m only 5.6 pounds away from my goal weight! Well, initial goal weight anyway (my official WW goal weight!) I got my 10% key chain a few weeks ago too! I’m so proud of myself for not quitting. I have tried and quit before, but I’m sticking to it and becoming lifetime. Its a promise I’ve made to myself that I cannot break.
My boyfriend and I qualify for low-income housing. Usually, this would be a not-so-neat-sounding idea BUT we were looking for apartments and came across the NICEST place we’ve been in. And it is brand new. With all new appliances. INCLUDING a washer and dryer , dishwasher, and garbage disposal (not to mention is has a back porch and an extra storage closet outside… oh and a huge place to lock up the bikes, swimming pool, hot tub, internet access, fitness room, entertainment area, and cats and dogs are allowed..) And it is $150 cheaper than what we are paying for right now. We got a call today saying we were approved and we go in tomorrow for another interview and some money for holding the apartment. It will be SO nice having cheaper rent again. This place has been sucking us dry. Next thing to really reign in is the grocery bills.
I have to sign a paper (and have it notarized) saying that I will not work for the next 12 months! Yay! (Housing….I can’t say I really wanted to work right now anyway with school and all.) So this goal is gone. :)
Meh. I’m not so interested about writing all of my things out onto a blog anymore. I think I am done with this goal.
I suck at this. I have not been saving money. I’ve been wasting it. Now, I feel powerless. Ugnn!!!! Tomorrow is a new day right?
Heres a list of some things I want to start doing:
1.) introducing new fresh produce to them (bird salads!)
2.) letting them mouth my hand more so we can get used to each other
3.) clean the cage way more often
4.) make them some new toys and let them go crazy. Also put yellow pages, boxes and other junk in there for them to rip up
5.) rearrange the cage more often to help stimulate their minds!
Long term goals include getting their wings clipped so we can start taking them out of the cage, hand taming them (sigh), and then having out of the cage time for at least 20 minutes a day. These are going to be a bit further in the future since we are dead broke and I need to have someone else clip their wings. I also need some confidence in hand taming these wild little babies since I neglected to continue handling them daily and they became more wild. I love these little guys so much and I want them to be able to jump around outside the cage for a bit a day (while the cats are in another room of course..)
Tomorrow I am going to go and buy a bunch of things to make some toys with.. like some wood beads, leather, and maybe some bells (MAYBE…) :)
My porch garden is doing very well right now. My money tree is kind of sad, and when I re-potted him he had hardly any root structure so I’m just asking for them to be taken care of and hoping for the best for my little tree. Otherwise though my herbs and little palm tree guy (eee! I don’t know what it is!) are doing great! They seem so happy to be outside.
So I did a meditative bit of remote viewing while laying in the bed yesterday. I have to admit that I knew I could have easily gone out, but I was feeling too fearful of the feelings.
Why? I’ve done it before..
Today I will go over my fear and then do some meditation again. Also I have some reading to do out of another book that I got at the library. I like reading different methods, ideas, etc.. though the book that I bought a while back is very nice and details OBEs obtained through meditation, rather that just before sleep.
Alright- fear be gone!
Hahah! I first just asked my boyfriend if we could paint a bandaid on the part of his car that is all smashed up.. but we’ve now decided on spray paint. The only thing now is to decide on content, which is not as easy. Something to fit the car for sure, and while I was thinking something comic book style.. its still going to be a process while I draw a lot of things out.
This is taking so long trying to work with my boyfriends schedule to actually get out. I can start, stop and change gears fine. I may just have to sneak out with the car early one morning and drive myself to get the driving in traffic part down. I don’t know. I really need to be able to drive by myself in the next couple of weeks.
I haven’t really put myself into any situations where I can make new friends that I would actually enjoy. Yes, I suppose I could have made some last term in college but I had nothing in common with most people I talked to. I want friends that don’t party, drink, do drugs and who are open minded and fun. People that laugh and watch Will Ferrel movies. Some friends that would like to just drive to Portland to look at book stores. I’m going to have to find some kinds of groups and clubs to join to meet these kinds of people but I just really don’t know where to start. I feel like I’m still so new in town, but I’m not. Ah… where to start.. where to start..
I have not done this at all. April first and on I will. I have to.
I am actually just scared after my first experience. I wasn’t scared at that time, I was actually extremely excited. So much so that I jumped back into body and ran in the computer room to tell Timmy. I think I am just afraid of success and really having to explore myself and my life when I do this. Afraid of REALLY REALLY being in touch.
I used to be obsessed with this idea… the car isn’t MINE (in my name) but its Tim’s.. and he said I can do it. Now all I need is a bit of new research and a good idea. I don’t think I’ll turn it into a sculptural art car, but just painted. Once we get rid of this car then I’ll work on a sculptural car with the car we buy afterwards (This is kinda far ahead, or more unknown, as we’re keeping the Probe until it dies. After that I want an old Volvo station wagon.)
So my mini goal on this is to research some good painting ideas and then talk to Timmy about options. Oh yeah, and to have some extra money for this (If i go with stencils and spray paint it shouldn’t be too bad)
This is mostly done. We have proven that we don’t want to stick to a PLAN but I have it scheduled out what meat to use from the freezer each week this month and we can do that easily (Well.. I hate it right now.. pork chops suck.)
SO! I’m marking it as done. I did what we will use, I have meal ideas and a very basic plan.
The last job I had was this time last year! Eeek! I updated my resume today though which made me feel 100x more confident. Tomorrow its to the employment office (If I can get up the nerve.. whats wrong with me!!) to apply for a job that I would really like (Supportting adults with developmental disabilities)....
Or really anything at this point would be nice. We’re dead broke and I’m taking online classes this term so I can work.
EH! We’ve been able to stick to this…. sort of. We bought some salad today because I was dying for some, as well as some bread and Timmy got some juice.
Good thing though- we’re using up the pork chops! Hooray. I have to think of some great creative ways to use them so Tim doesn’t get totally sick of it (there are 4 more in the pack and I just really don’t know if I can eat them.. I don’t like meat that much)
Oh yeah and we ate out at Phatty Snack Shack. BUT! I don’t care.. its cheap, a cute little local business and they rock so I will support them (but we made a rule about it.. if we go again we have to take a long walk before and grab it on the walk back home)
Yay its freaking done!!! :) :) :)
Its nice and big and I can lay on it.. hooorayyyyy!
