freewind88




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  1. 1. be happy
    2 entries . 2 cheers
    21,801 people
  2. 2. write my grandparents a letter
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    1 person
  3. 3. be nicer to my parents
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    158 people
  4. 4. get rid of my shyness
    4 entries . 7 cheers
    28 people
  5. 5. put more effort into making a group
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    1 person
  6. 6. do one thing a day that scares me
    6 entries . 3 cheers
    9 people
  7. 7. do brilliantly well in college
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    3 people
  8. 8. have confidence
    2 entries . 7 cheers
    107 people
  9. 9. read good books
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    59 people
  10. 10. eat gellato in Italy
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    1 person
  11. 11. be on TV
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    424 people
  12. 12. watch Jerry Springer live
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    59 people
  13. 13. write my name on the Eiffel Tower
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    4 people
  14. 14. love my body
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    1,090 people
  15. 15. not be jealous
    2 entries . 1 cheer
    185 people
  16. 16. expand my vocabulary
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    2,609 people
  17. 17. visit China
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    788 people
  18. 18. influence somebody positively
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    2 people
  19. 19. stop procrastinating
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    26,910 people
  20. 20. Stop being so hard on myself
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    147 people
  21. 21. flirt more
    2 entries . 3 cheers
    355 people
  22. 22. meet Regina Spektor, and tell her how wonderful she is
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    11 people
  23. 23. Be a nude model for an art class
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    228 people
  24. 24. write like david sedaris
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    5 people
  25. 25. ride in a hot air balloon
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    1,976 people
  26. 26. work for a feeling of achievement each day
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    33 people
  27. 27. drop 43 pennies in random places so that people can find them and feel lucky
    90 people
  28. 28. be a beautiful lady
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    1 person
  29. 29. Want to be me
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    2 people
  30. 30. make deans list
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    59 people
  31. 31. analyze less and just go for it in my personal life
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    7 people
  32. 32. not talk about people
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    4 people
  33. 33. learn how to skateboard
    2 entries
    393 people
  34. 34. be a renaissance woman
    1 entry
    34 people
  35. 35. become a sexologist
    9 people
  36. 36. not be such a tool
    1 entry
    1 person
  37. 37. let go of people who are bad for me.
    3 entries . 2 cheers
    92 people
  38. 38. be my own best friend
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    65 people
  39. 39. Not care what people think about me
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    56 people

How I did it
How to stop being homesick
It took me
2 years
It made me
its about time!


Recent entries
Get through today okay (read all 2 entries…)
Phewf 43 minutes ago

Got through it, worked things out early afternoon. Will try not to let anything effect my happiness. I should create my own happiness and he should only be icing on the cake, not the dough itself.



be complimented by a boy (read all 2 entries…)
;-) 15 hours ago

once you find happiness in yourself you realize all the compliments that come your way, you see the positivity that surrounds you, it’s wonderful.



Get through today okay (read all 2 entries…)
Sunday, November 8 2009 15 hours ago

I am feeling so depressed today, all I want is to succesfully get through the day.

So let me explain, this year as a Junior in college has the first time at college i’ve ever truly been happy. I just felt so comfortable, happy, attractive, and motivated. All was good so it was no suprise when I went to a party one night I started talking to a really great looking/hilarious guy who began to take me on dates.

I was so happy already that this just added the icing on the cake and it was so exciting. He’s a great guy, he’s er..”eccentric” for sure, and he was shitty at contacting me.

We began to be boyfriend/girlfriend, in the apartment complex he lives right above me and he though I know means well just puts such little effort into me. I know it’s his style, he’s not really the type of guy to be by his phone a lot, but it’s made me feel bad about myself. It’s made me feel demanding/not worth his attention/that he doesn’t like me.

Last night was the first time on a weekend he didnt call me at all. Why I say I want to get through today okay is that I realized if he doesn’t call by 8pm tonight I am going to break up with him.

I realized that there is more stress in this relationship than happiness, and I know already that is a sign to break up. But MAN its been fun having a boyfried. Its been fun having sex with someone who attractive or going on dates and making him laugh. Its been great watching him play his music and whispering into the night. Of course I like him, I like him a lot, but throughout the course of the relationship Ive honeslty done all I can do, and part of me hopes so bad he calls today, so that’s why I’m saying get through today.

Im making rules for myself

1. I know you are feeling very anxious if he will call /not you obviously like him a lot but put the anxiousness aside and DO YOUR HOMEWORK. There are FOUR WEEKS LEFT of the semester and you need to bring up your grades!!!!

2. If by eight he doesn’t call, call him up and dress beautifully and break up with him nicely. You are a great girl and though you are now programmed to have your happiness involve him you deserve happiness on your own, or a guy that really wants to see you and puts effort. You are not someone to call up at 11pm for fun, but a girl to see and get to know.

3. You deserve better

4. Be nice to him, really nice. I know you’re angry and you like him but be nice.

5. Think positive thoughts. Hopefully he will call, but how much work you do/ how you feel does not have to involve him.

6 I love you, good luck.



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