fresko12

Cramps.

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe Ill get a chance to see you
When i close my eyes
I’m going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale
Can you hold my hands and be my guide

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

[Chorus]
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don’t wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love’s too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain’t going no where
Baby long as you’re here
Ill be floating on air cause you’re my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don’t wanna wake up from you

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around around all of my thoughts
Boy you’re my temporary high
I wish that when I wake up you’re there
To wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you’ll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this

[Chorus]

Tattoo your name across my heart
So it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?

[Chorus]

I miss many things from my past. Things that can not be taken away, but definitely many things that can not be added onto. Memories are so incredible. You have them as storage, but there is no guarantee that you’re ever going to experience them again.
I miss my old house. My chicken, and the way she followed me around, and I miss burying my face in her feathers. I miss sitting outside with her, and just watching her walk around. I miss when I was little, and on days when there was no school my grandmother watching me, and us watching soap operas together. I miss going into her room before she got out of bed, and just laying in bed with her talking about nothing. I miss playing four square, and sailor moon in the middle of the dirt road I used to live on. I miss that dirt road. I miss riding my bike everywhere. I miss Christy, and Stacy. I miss having the funnest times of my life with them. I miss my old honda accord. I miss how working at cvs used to be. I miss my mom bringing me surprises when she would pick me up from school. I miss playing homeward bound with my friends. I miss being carefree. I miss the time before it felt like everyone was judging me. I miss the vacations to Maine. I miss not having to worry about money issues. I miss hanging out at the apartment. I miss being out on my own. I miss having an awesome roommate. I miss hanging out with Chris at Aunt Marlena’s. I miss driving to school with him in the morning. I miss the feeling of my first kiss. I miss going over Jordan’s house for the first time. I miss hanging out at Jess’ house. I miss us doing triple C’s together. I miss her apartment. I miss the feeling of Jaimie and I’s new friendship. I miss hanging out with Jordan and Greg. I miss hanging out so late at night with Kevin, and having hour upon hours of conversations with him late at night. I miss coming home from school on Friday, and watching TV until midnight. I miss midnight feeling really late. I miss Stephen being head over heals for me. I miss napping with him. I miss going places and photographing with Alex. I miss him being proud of me. I miss going over Billy’s house. I miss the intensity of his love. I miss being in New York City with my grandmother, and mom. I miss the period in my life when I had better self confidence.
I miss my memories, and I’ve always had the ability to smile, and be grateful that I have them, but at the same time I can’t help but to miss the feeling of all the good memories I have. However, lately I’ve been clinging to the past way too much. So, from this point forward I am going to make great efforts to enjoy the memories I am making at the moment. To just live in the moment more in general, and to think ahead more to secure a better future, and make more and better memories than the ones I already have. :]