I'm doing 43 things
My biggest hang up is with my Father. I haven’t seen him in so long, I actually don’t even know how many years it’s been since I last saw him. I think we are going on 4 years. It’s sad because we live in the same city. He is always asking my sister how I’m doing, but he can never pick up the phone and call me. A few years ago he wanted to see me for a holiday that was also his birthday, he wanted me to attend church with him and hang out as a family. Well, I called to say I couldn’t make it because of a work conflict. I left the message on his phone, actually called after work to follow up, called the next day to leave my number (which he has) one more time & to tell him to again give me a call so we can catch up and the man never called me back!!! He has yet to call me back. I was so hurt because I was fine with not having him in my life, then I went out on a limb to reconnect and he screws me. For awhile I had to deal with being rejected again and again by him. I could actually cry right now because the situation makes me so sad. I like to think I forgive him for the abusive childhood I had, but I really don’t think I’m over it. I have to work so hard to cope everyday as a responsible adult. My sisters and I all agree that it is a miracle that we are functioning adults because when I say our childhood was whack…I mean W-H-A-C-K, jacked up, if I told you stories you probably wouldn’t even believe me. Not forgiving him is the easier way to live my life, but I know not the healthier way to live my life.
frikkinfinally's Life List
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1. be an event planner
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2. buy an SUV
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3. fall in love with my life
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4. wake up early everyday
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5. buy Gilmore Girls Season 4
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6. move back to Hawaii
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7. vacation by myself
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8. wear fake eyelashes
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9. eat more vegetables
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10. not take things so personally
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11. do yoga
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12. learn how to prepare 10 excellent meals
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13. Complete everything on this list
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14. learn more about computers
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15. have a better attitude
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16. write a letter to my children & husband that should be read should I ever passaway before they do
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17. go to more concerts
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18. buy Tribond
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19. buy a new stereo for my car
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20. go back to Mecca in San Francisco
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21. go to bed at a decent time
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22. become a P.I.
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23. stop lying
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24. go back to college
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25. learn about the stock market and investing
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26. save more money
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27. go to New York
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28. go to San Francisco
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29. forgive
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30. have more self-esteem
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31. spend more time with my kids
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32. be a bad ass dancer
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33. be a housewife
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34. save for my kids education
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35. stop watching so much tv
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36. order a drink other than my signature Turkey & Coke
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37. learn how to ride a bike
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38. find a job that is fun
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39. Write a book and get it published
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40. have more friends that are worth it
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41. be okay with not getting a fair amount of child support
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42. stop hating my children's step mother
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43. lose weight
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Recent entries
Okay...now the healthy living starts!
4 years ago
Alright, I am going to commit myself to living a healthier life. Mainly with my emotional eating. My goal is to be thinner by X-mas. That’s 11 weeks to go and about 3lbs per week. That might be a bit extreme, but I want to concentrate on my goal and be done with my weight issue. I want to ring in the new year feeling really proud of myself for getting close or meeting my goal of x-mas.
