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fromablancebeam




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fromablancebeam's Life List

  2. 1. To live instead of exist
    1 entry . 2 cheers     		10,889 people
  3. 2. stick to a budget
    		1,304 people
  4. 3. get married
    		18,732 people
  5. 4. Live an unconventional life
    		89 people
  6. 5. Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do
    		2,374 people
  7. 6. buy a 35mm camera
    		9 people
  8. 7. graduate from college
    		6,138 people
  9. 8. create the soundtrack to my life
    		1,815 people
  10. 9. do humanitarian work in africa
    		18 people
  11. 10. go to a drive-in movie
    		207 people
  12. 11. Step out of my comfort zone at least once a month
    		19 people
  13. 12. smoke out in an amsterdam coffee shop
    		212 people
  14. 13. do StripAerobics
    		2 people
  15. 14. work as an art director for a fashion magazine
    		1 person
  16. 15. write down 100 happy thoughts to remind me of how good life is.
    		23 people
  17. 16. own a house
    		2,037 people
  18. 17. pose nude
    		412 people
  19. 18. Learn to play the drums
    		1,940 people
  20. 19. Drive across the USA
    		2,162 people
  21. 20. see the northern lights
    		16,993 people
  22. 21. feel secure in my own skin
    2 cheers     		3 people
  23. 22. organize my life
    		909 people
  24. 23. fall in love and never fall out again
    		12 people
  25. 24. make my first demo CD
    		1 person
  26. 25. Sing and dance in a Broadway musical
    1 cheer     		1 person
  27. 26. Read the entire Bible in a year
    		12 people
  28. 27. get out of debt
    		11,097 people
  29. 28. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
    		18,611 people
  30. 29. Save money
    		14,827 people
  31. 30. write a screenplay
    		2,201 people
  32. 31. Watch more French films
    		74 people
  33. 32. do something nice for someone every day
    		131 people
  34. 33. weigh less than 100 pounds
    		72 people
  35. 34. prove myself, to myself.
    		6 people
  36. 35. sell art
    		32 people
  37. 36. Spend New Year's Eve in Times Square
    		248 people
  38. 37. create a list of 100 must-read books and read them.
    		995 people
Recent entries
21 day fast
it seems as if 2 years ago

everyone trying to loe weight is around 120-150

i weigh 107, but i look at myself and want to puke.
because i feel like my body looks disgusting

when i sit down theres all this extra skin

i run on the treadmill for hours
and use an ab machine

but i feel like its not enough.

i havent eaten since a week ago…without vomiting it up
my diet has been mainly straight water
but yesterday i slipped up and had a caramello frappacino
and a mini muffin

i feel disgusting

i want to get down to about 100 lbs.
but i use gemma ward and lily cole for my thinspiration

Jan 31, 2007, 09:19AM PST | 2 comments


To live instead of exist
you can tell from the lines on her face 2 years ago

it hurts, alot…

to want to exist, despite all the negativity and hurt you suffered through.
i know for myself, that ive had things come hard but all i want is to be more than an just existing and breathing up oxygen.

losing everything, rebuilding….just to lose it all again; over and over.

i just want to live

Jan 28, 2007, 05:21PM PST | 1 comment



 

I want to:

The world wants to...

pick a religion finish all the craft projects I have started play counter strike Beat my depression get an industrial piercing starsnize wants to Start going to church. be more positive I want to move out Go to Iceland Quit my job get lasik surgery mused wants to have less paper in my life learn secret spy skills practice piano more often stop worrying about what others think football Put a message in a bottle and throw it out to sea hike the appalachian trail look good in a bikini Lose 30 pounds gaia gold generator travel more enroll my puppy in school become less shy be in love forever blog get ordained
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