fugaler

they often say set goals that are reasonable, measureable, attainable and specific. Well I’ve tried all that in regards to my health- reach my goal weight, exercise x number of days a week…and i don’t know if it’s necessarily made me healthy. I would be really “good” and then binge on “bad foods” because even though I wasn’t depriving myself or “on a diet” it was still a “bad food”. I want to be healthy for the feeling of being healthy, not for being skinny. I’ve lived that half truth for too long (that thinness equals happiness…btw, it doesn’t) I want to eat healthily because I love how it makes me feel, and to a certain extent I do that already…I DO LOVE veggies and fruits and whole grains, beans…all of it, I also love treats, but I don’t want to overdo it on treats because I’ve been “good” by eating healthily. And then feel guilty like I need to exercise off all the calories in that brownie or ice cream. It’s really a hard kind of feeling to capture. I’m still working on it. I feel best when I listen to my body. I am working on trusting my body and respecting it’s needs and wants. If I want a treat- don’t beat myself up for wanting it. Eat it and enjoy it and move on with life. Life is MORE than food and pants size. Obviously I still struggle with this, but I’m on my way

be nice and patient with my children. I’m not very compassionate or understanding at times. I need to work on that.

it was so much fun, to be by myself and find simple clothes in colors that really make me come alive. It’s a fun journey to be on