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I didn’t get much lucky for the weekend. Still I am grateful
(1) for the breezy sunny Sunday which I didn’t have time to enjoy.
(2) for the great family diner.
(3) that I got my book from Amazon.cn.
(4) for satisfaction in small and simple things.
(5) that she talked to me after torturing me for the whole weekend.

I am grateful,
(1) that my talk with her when she was low earned my a date in the evening. Yes, she asked me out.
(2) that she loved the desserts I took over for her.
(3) that I initiated talk with an office guy who has been with a cold face all the time. He smiled back and exchanged a few word with me.
(4) that I realized once more that I can change, not simply accept and appreciate.
(5) for the first rain in spring and a sound sleep.
(6) for the funny game rps25. (http://www.umop.com/rps25.htm)
(7) that browsing mitbbs & seeing what others were doing gave me a higher goal, which saves me from the aimlessness of the past few weeks.

I easily build up defense when talking to others. That makes me can’t focus on other people’s talk; makes me dumb; makes me feel I am weak; makes me recoil to my shelter.
Maybe it is not so bad to let others see who you really are.