Well, I’m moving again and I hope to do things better this time around. Don’t get me wrong; this “quiet year” of reading and hard work and reflection has been great. It’s just time to move things forward even more.
To that end, I want to make a list of things I hope to accomplish – a “don’t quit ‘til you’ve done these things” list. It’s scary to write it down because that gives me a concrete measure for failure, but it can also be a kind of map for me and I need that.
Without further ado:
1. Remember fruits and vegetables and water? Yeah, get back on track – eat real food, not “Soylent Orange” (aka CheezIts) and co.
2. Work on being more flexible. Body, relationships, thinking. Recognize that when you tell yourself you’re afraid to sacrifice strength, the salient concept there is fear. Turn and face it.
3. The Artist’s Way. You’ve done morning pages for a year but not the artist’s dates. Think 52 Projects by Jeffrey Yamaguchi. You are way more right brained than you are allowing yourself to exhibit and manifest. Make yourself manifest by doing what you need and want to do. Fly, freak flag, fly.
4. Don’t believe the lie that being an adult is not fun. It’s only going to be as fun as I make it. Fun is up to me.
5. Why have you told yourself you’ll do informational interviews to investigate different careers for more than a decade and still not done it? It is time to step up to this. Find out who you are, what you want to be, and where you want to put your energy. The world needs you somewhere. No more treadmill jobs. Look into career counseling.
6. Work the steps. This is key.
7. Get some hormones to combat this PMDD before it kills you or wrecks your life.
8. Find a counselor.
9. Be of use. Keep trying to find a good volunteer fit and don’t give up until you find it. Yes, you are going to be uncomfortable, until you’re not.
10. Make some friends. You are not the only bored young adult out there. Make the adventure club you wish existed.
11. Keep working on the New Lifetime Reading Plan and all the other reading you do. It’s been great for you to get so much material in your head. It’s helping square you to the world.
12. Write the screenplay you’ve been thinking about.
13. Sing. Play piano and guitar and clarinet. Get some drums and go find a drum circle. It’s the most direct route to your inner self and the best balm for a suffering spirit. Sing out with everything you’ve got.
14. Teeth. Cats’ teeth. My teeth. Also insurance. All things medical – it’s a jungle out there, but that doesn’t excuse this lack of self-care and care for the cats. Find a way to pay for this.
15. Money – keep making progress.
16. When are you going to travel?
17. Languages – keep at it. This is a lifetime pursuit. You will always study another language. It’s something you love doing.
18. Watch your input / output. When’s the last time you made something? Did you recognize it? Did you honor what you made?
19. Paint! You’re kind of good at it, in a liberal sense of the word.
I’ll edit this later if I need to – sometimes I have blind spots accidentally on purpose but another day I may see them. I think that’s enough to be getting on with, anyway.