getmeoffofthisreef

i think i’ve gotten much, much better at this. and i’ve also come to terms with no matter how “in control” or assertive i am, it doesn’t necessarily mean that everything will work out because of it or that we’re meant to be.

i suppose more than anything else i mean in my relationship. it’s difficult, i’m 19 and this is my first serious relationship. we’ve been together for 7 months now, and i’ve realized more and more how much i let him take control of everything in the beginning, and when i’m unhappy about our relationship it’s because i feel like so much is out of my control. i tend to overthink things, and it gets stressful knowing how to confront issues… i wonder if i’m weak because i don’t sometimes… ugh… i don’t know…

indescribable and intimate. i lost it to someone who, at the time, was a hookup, but i fell in love with and is now my boyfriend of 7 months. it was worth it, but as far as knowing when you’re ready… i think that is different for everyone. decide for yourself. you’ll know deep down. losing it to someone you trust who cares about you is always a better idea than to a stranger.