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i’m selfish (one of my goals to reverse, i assure you) and i’ve never tried to be a good daughter, i’ve just been…a daughter. my mom has given up everything for my sister and i, but i don’t want to feel like i owe her anything- pretty nasty huh? and now she has cancer. she’s going to get better, and i thought i was doing a good job taking care of her. but i still argue with her- why do i have to try to make her see things my way? she doesn’t need this right now, i don’t understand why i get so reactive. i know that there’s nothing i can do to make my past treatment of her better…she’ll never forget any time that i’ve hurt her. i thought i was doing a good job being a caretaker and staying home and doing what i could, but i’m not so sure any more. i need to fix things.
gettingoffmybutt's Life List
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1. become less selfish
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2. be kissed in the rain
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3. dance more
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4. be a better daughter
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5. volunteer
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6. become financially independant
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7. invest
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8. stop eating sugar
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9. find value in things
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10. build character
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11. go to europe
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12. follow through on goals and projects
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13. learn html
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14. not be afraid to be myself
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15. learn to play the fiddle
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16. learn sign language
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17. lose 15 lbs
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18. manage my time better
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19. not waste so much time online
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20. run faster than i did freshman year of college
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21. be a better friend
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22. not be so reactive
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23. become more spiritual
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24. not take things personally
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my mom just came in and laid it on the line…i’ve been selfish for a long time and not even realized it, but from what i see that seems to be a common theme. i think this has been a hamper in a lot of ways, i prefer to be in my own space and time rather than thinking about others. i’m only nice to other people when i want them to like me and as a result i’m afraid to be myself. i’ve hurt my family a lot without even realizing it. i need to get my act together. i say i’ve been trying to do this for a long time, but i’m not sure what ‘trying to get things together’ implies. this is going to be hard, not going to lie, but i need to get my butt in gear.
