ggirlluna

I have spent my whole life trying to avoid confrontation, trying to avoid the big question. What happens if I stand my ground and I lose (the hopes the dreams the relationship)? Well, I have a new tactic. When I feel like running, and I do, I turn to the person and say: I am not afraid of losing this fight. I have that sick feeling in my stomach that makes me want to run and I am pretty sure you put it there. Its telling me that my self-worth is in question here and I don’t like it. Well, it sounds like that in my head. But its pretty close. Because running is just your burden, but when you give your lover/friend/relative/boss a choice, then they either give you reason to stay or reason to leave. Its better for the soul.

Ah, art. So fickle. I designed a tattoo (for my boyfriend), at least its something. Other ventures include angry art, depressed art, rage art, sad art, lonely art but honestly its only art if you say it is. Otherwise its just my special way of not losing control…but those are the pieces people gravitate towards. I know that the emotion jumps off the page and most of the time it scares them but they JUST CAN’T LOOK AWAY. I just wonder what happy art feels like.

ok, i am a cancer and I KNEW BETTER. but still, everyone deserves a chance right? i never really thought that we would be so incompatable. i spent seven years trying to figure out why he never really liked me but i just gave up. who knew that the astrologists were right?