gigabytehero

Today, napping equals bad dreams. Suck.

Lion! I can’t wait until Halloween :)

Quick update:
Not really feeling all that hot. Weeaaaak. Must drink more lemonade. I had a ton of dreams about cheating on the cleanse. I’ve got to remember to take this one day at a time.
And in torturing myself news…
I was trying to find a vegetarian recipe for philly cheese steak because yesterday I wanted one in the worst way (even though I’ve never had one before in my life), and in searching I found out that there’s a Vegan Yum Yum cookbook! (Yes, I’m behind the curve here.) So I’ve got it ordered and ready to try when I’m done cleansing. I cannot wait.

I wish it wasn’t so quiet on this forum!

I mixed up some new lemonade with much less syrup and much less cayenne pepper. I know it will be harder to get as many calories this way, but the amount of syrup was just so sickly sweet. I’m enjoying it a lot more now that it’s less sweet, and I’ll make up for it by drinking more of it.

Even though I don’t have any classes on Tuesdays, I’m keeping really busy and mostly am able to keep my mind off of what I’m not eating. The morning was torture though. Sitting at a fundraising table for two hours watching a giant tv showing commercial after commercial of delicious, fattening, greasy foods. And not to mention being right outside the doorway to the food court, and down the hall from the cafe…. mmmmm….

ANYWAY. I’m glad about my decision to do this over Halloween weekend. Otherwise I would have been indulging myself in far too many sweets, and probably intoxicated Thursday through Sunday. And no one needs that.

Oh goodness. I’m hoping to have the willpower to make it at least 5 days. This morning was so rough, but I know that is just an indication of how much I really really need this cleanse.
I didn’t have nearly as much lemonade as I should have, mainly because after 6 pm just looking at it was making my stomach turn. I’m not sure why, it doesn’t taste bad.

I was thinking about what kind of abuses I’ve done to my body since the last time I did this cleanse, since this time around seems so much different, and then it hit me… alcohol. I was not much of a drinker at all before the first time I cleansed, and since the first time I picked up a dirty habit of binge-drinking semi-regularly. This morning was not something I ever really want to live through again, so I easily came to the conclusion that I can easily live without alcohol again. And thinking about it, what has alcohol even ever done for me? I tend to get peer-pressured into drinking it, then end up doing really stupid things and sometimes not even remember doing it. The only thing worse than the hangover the the next day that renders me useless is running into people who ask me “Do you remember __ last night?” And all I can think is, I don’t even remember seeing you last night. It’s so embarrassing.

Clearly the sluggishness, the unmotivated feeling, the grumpiness, the dependency on sleeping pills, the switching between eating habits of an anorexic middle school girl and a competitive eating sumo-wrestler, the weekly hangovers, the screwy blood-sugar were all symptoms that I needed to make some changes in my life.

I’m settling inn with my tea now, so I can expect to be woken up in a few hours by horrible cramps :) Goodbye toxins!

Whoooo buddy. I was reading over my entries from last time going through this cleanse and it definitely didn’t start the same way as it did today.
I knew I wasn’t exactly taking care of myself lately, but I feel like I’m exorcising demons here. Last night I cheerily said goodbye to the delicious cake our neighbor so generously shared with us, got my lemonade ready, drank my senna tea, and went to sleep very excited about today.
This morning I woke up with crippling stomache cramps but wasn’t too concerned. I don’t know what exactly I’ve been doing to my poor body lately but it resulted in cold sweats, nausea and feeling like I’m going to faint.
I’m so glad I’m doing this cleanse. Obviously I’ve got some really awful stuff to clean out.

So let’s just declare this officially begun…

... now what???

gossip!

This one’s going to be hard to let go of… but it’s DEFINITELY for the better.

My hair was finally long enough and in good enough shape to donate it last month, after waiting three years. Now I’ve donated my hair three times, making a total of 40 inches :):):)

I’m happy to be able to contribute, and I love my new hair… it requires so much less shampoo and conditioner, ha.

Now I have a piano repertoire of a few very simple songs! I found out that my university offered a beginning piano class, and took it this past spring semester. I loved it. Being able to play a song which required both hands to do two different things made me feel so accomplished.
I hope I get to take more piano lessons someday.

I was so hoping it was only one mouse this time like the last time. After we caught the one a few days ago I was so much more relieved, but I can HEAR them in the next room and I can see know it’s clearly not just a bachelor infestation. UGHHHHH. I’m WAY too grossed out to sleep knowing they’re in my dresser, nesting in my clothing, crapping diseases into my home!
Call me a bad vegetarian, but when they invade my home, all bets are off and they’re going to die.

Noticed something I sometimes do that is incredibly unclassy… talking and eating. Ew.

So when at parties and trying to make conversation, I will avoid the food no matter how hungry I am! Dropping cookie crumbs and being paranoid that the crackers are sticking to my teeth just isn’t gonna cut it.

I have met so many new people lately, I’m so proud of myself! And more than 75% of them were girls which is seriously amazing progress for me.
Can’t wait to make these people my friends :)

Tonight I met a truckload of new people and I not only did an awesome job keeping conversations going, I did an amazing job at keeping eye contact too!

I’m feelin’ so good about this!

And it was a lot of fun.

Because this morning I woke up accidentally at 6 and right now I’m realizing how wonderful it is sitting here with my banana, my coffee, and my totally quiet and lovely house watching a sunrise.

Waaaay nicer to start my day like this rather than the routine mad rush to get ready for the day and off to where I’m going 5 minutes late.

but also kind of… sexist? Why doesn’t it ever ask you to involve your male counterpart in anything other than ‘date night?’ Just because I’m the woman living in the house doesn’t mean I have to run the cooking and cleaning by myself. But man, my house is a disaster sometimes, I need some kind of system.

I’m going to use the routines as a guideline and see if I can get him involved in it too. We’ll see how this goes.

Well, off to go shine my sink.

I gave a hearty yes to every invitation I received this summer, then noticed that I was extremely over-committed and had to back out of a lot of things. Which disappointed a lot of people. I’m lame like that.

I’m going to try this again but with a lot more careful planning!

I’ve drank (drunk? dranken?) 4 glasses so far! I really like the taste of water, I don’t know why I don’t drink it more often. A few of them have felt like a chore I must admit, I miss my green tea! But if I replace half of the tea I drink everyday with water, I will be so much healthier. Wooooooo!

My guidelines for this goal:
1. Friends who are girls.
2. Friends that are as fun and good to be around like my friends at home.

Being around people who don’t dislike you is waaaaay different from being around FRIENDS. I was reminded of that this weekend when I went back home for a few days and we had a girls night. I’m striving to have that here at school too.

I’m way overdue for some good girl friends where I live. Seriously.