girlbytheriver




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girlbytheriver's Life List

  1. 1. weigh 110 pounds
    13 entries
    147 people
  2. 2. smile more
    6 entries . 3 cheers
    2,839 people
  3. 3. Be less shy
    3 entries . 2 cheers
    2,675 people
  4. 4. procrastinate less
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    1,446 people
  5. 5. become an optimist
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    31 people
  6. 6. Go snowboarding for an entire season
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    4 people
  7. 7. establish an absolutely amazing closet
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    3 people
  8. 8. watch Discovery Channel
    3 people
  9. 9. list 50 things I love about me
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    17 people
  10. 10. Make this year the best yet
    1 person
  11. 11. To live instead of exist
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    9,426 people
  12. 12. have better posture
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    6,576 people
  13. 13. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
    6,242 people
  14. 14. Get my lip pierced
    1 entry
    960 people
  15. 15. read a kurt vonnegut book
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    1 person
  16. 16. Never grow up.
    649 people
  17. 17. take one photograph each day as a way to document my life.
    1 entry
    224 people
  18. 18. Learn to juggle
    940 people
  19. 19. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
    1 entry
    16,073 people
  20. 20. become better at small-talk
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    1,626 people
  21. 21. Create a photoblog.
    30 people
  22. 22. become a certified lifeguard
    42 people
  23. 23. learn how to graffiti
    1,048 people
  24. 24. Become a vegetarian
    1,363 people
  25. 25. travel the world
    15,221 people
  26. 26. reduce my environmental footprint
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    475 people
  27. 27. learn parkour
    221 people
  28. 28. Learn to play the guitar
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    10,738 people
  29. 29. Make an independent film
    70 people
  30. 30. learn how to drive stick-shift
    4,163 people
  31. 31. see the northern lights
    14,284 people
  32. 32. learn to raise one eyebrow
    220 people
  33. 33. Take my mom to Paris
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    6 people
  34. 34. learn to pick a lock
    1 entry
    355 people
  35. 35. organize a heist
    17 people
  36. 36. find love. real love --- ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without each other love!
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    210 people
  37. 37. become bilingual
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    126 people
  38. 38. see cirque du soleil while tripping
    1 cheer
    1 person
  39. 39. read harry potter 7
    423 people
  40. 40. write down 100 happy thoughts to remind me of how good life is.
    1 cheer
    22 people
  41. 41. stop saying like
    233 people
  42. 42. Learn to control the volume of my voice
    2 people
  43. 43. do 100 things I have never done
    8 people
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Learn to play the guitar
Untitled 6 months ago

yesterday my boyfriend taught me how to play seven nation army by the white stripes :D


find love. real love --- ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without each other love!
Untitled 7 months ago

Im scared. I dont know whether to check this or not. He loves me & i love him, there’s no doubt about it. I love him so much. but I don’t know if I’m in love with him. It scares me because he says he’s in love with me…I want to be in love with him back, i really do. but i dont want to lie to myself, or him. they say when you’re in love, you’ll just KNOW. But I don’t just know. does that mean I’m not? I dont know why im saying all this it just hit me last night I got all paranoid & it’s been bothering me ever since. Maybe he only likes/loves me cause I’m hot/attractive/beautiful or whatever. He always calls me beautiful. does he mean it? yes, but what scares me is why does he say it? is he just after me for my looks? but i really don’t think he is, & i don’t want to believe he is, because he’s best friends with my two best guy friends, they’re like brothers to me… they’d protect me if he was just using me… right?
why do i have all of these doubts? i thought this was supposed to be easy…
maybe we’re moving too fast. maybe it’s just intimidating because this has never happened to me before. our relationship seems to progress in jumps. first he asked me out, then he held my hand, then he told me he loved me, then he kissed me….we’ve been going out for 3 weeks. is that too fast or is it just fast for me cause I’ve never had a serious relationship before & now i am?
i love him so so so much.
i think im just afraid to be in love with him, because no one has ever had this effect on me. I don’t ever want to lose it.
but at the same time, i’m afraid to not be in love with him…


become an optimist
Untitled 7 months ago

yesterday my friend asked me if i found out my whole life up to this point had been a dream, none of it was real, would I want to stay in the dream forever, or would I want to wake up, having no knowledge of what my ‘real’ life was like. I didn’t even hesitate. I would stay in this dream. for the first time in a long time i feel like things are going exactly the way they should be . I’m feeling optimistic. thanks to the people around me who manage to stay strong in the worst situations. i draw my strength & inspiration from them every day.


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