AS of today i have not cut or burned in three days. I recently just began cutting. It was all really surreal. But immediatley i was mesmorized and obsessed. I couldnt look at sharp things without wanting to run home and cut. I was doing the ironing the other day when i thought, hmmmm..let me just see how this feels. Damn it…it was even better. it stung all night and thats all i could feel. I couldnt feel the pain or heatrbreak or emotions just the skin burning. very few people know i cut/burn. like 2-3. not even my therapist…hence the honest with the therapist goal:)
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1. identify 100 things that make me happy
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2. Take Hip-Hop dance classes
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3. listen to different types of music
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4. make more friends
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5. go out on a few dates.
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6. move out of this town
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7. stop settling for less
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8. Clean out my closet.
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9. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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10. Go to church at least once a month
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11. dance
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12. be honest with my therapist
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13. i want to stop cutting
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14. get a legal seperation
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15. Make a list of all the movies I want to watch and WATCH them.
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16. earn my CASAC
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17. be happy
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18. write poetry
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19. play basketball again
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20. be okay with being alone
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21. see a dermatologist
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22. Tell my parents im bisexual
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23. Let go of 'him"
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well i bought a new basketball today, maybe tomorrow i will get out there and shoot some hoops. Funny is that i mentioned this to a few freinds and they laughed. they thought it was weird that i wanted to shoot.
