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Because I don’t think I’d enjoy theater acting, here are the steps I think I want to take to become an actress. I know a bit of the biz from the other side being a student filmmaker.

Model for photographs for no pay but with the photographer giving me prints. Use the prints for headshots or whatever else are needed.
Take an acting course (just to get over nerves, I’m very nervous about acting).
Pick out a monologue I can use for auditions, perhaps a few to show off different facets of myself or characters I can do according to the audition.
Go to Mandy.com or craiglist and find student filmmaking productions (I trust them more, no pay but good experience and we’re all amateurs.) They should give me the finished product for my reel, which will be a collection of things I’ve been in for better auditions.

Maybe I should work backstage at a community theater to find out how it goes and see if I’d want to act on stage. I just think my nerves would take over in that kind of environment though. Movie sets I’m at least a bit used to and has a calmer feel to it, not much rushing about.

I’ve found a ‘friend’ at the place I work. We’ve gotten into a lot of philosophical discussions about physics and it’s ties to spirituality and religious thought. Just this week we had a discussion on higher levels of consciousness, how not many people reach that. I’ve reached it a few times, just a handful really, and only for brief periods. I find it miraculous and then I’m out of it, because I’m thinking of how miraculous it is. Anyway, I felt a bond with him and he reiterated a story to me of talking to about higher levels of consciousness with people of various religious backgrounds, one relationship in particular he described as ‘loving each other’ in a bond way, in a spiritual and I would be afraid to say familial way because it might lessen the strength of it. Anyway, I felt a similar bond with him, with our experiences with seeing a duality within ourselves and seeing the 3rd person that is needed within ourselves to observe the strife between our two halves, with having that experience of understanding it all.

Our discussions are so intellectual though. I just didn’t know spirituality could be so tiring!

I worry that teaching yoga might not be a steady job. I wonder if it’d have to be a parttime gig and what could be my other job that makes the income I’d need. Right now I teach high school and can’t imagine a parttime gig with my hours. Maybe during the summer but who wants a yoga teacher that’s only available in the summer, right?