goldintheair

The other day, under horrible pressure, I destroyed my lower lip to the point of bleeding. I think I’ve actually scarred it this time.

So, starting now, no picking. NONE. I’m determined. (Again)

Well I paid off the smallest one (a few hundred) and half of one of the medium ones! I’m getting there.

I have one late paper and when it’s handed in, I’m done my MA!

I suck so badly at deadlines that it’s a joke to even pretend that I’ll turn things in on time.

during writeups for my MA the stress made me go crazy and my lips were just shredded :’(
Now that that’s mostly done they feel a bit scarred but I didn’t really pick them at all yesterday, at least not during the day. Hopefully it’ll keep getting better…

Paid off the small one, half of one of the medium ones and expect the other half of the medium one to be paid off within a month. Making progress!

OMG my lips are absolutely SHREDDED again! it’s disgusting! I can’t stop picking! :’(:’(:’(

Stress and caffeine kill me!! I have to start again!

Sigh. :’(

This is a total failure. I want to do it, but it’s so hard.

Recently, since I moved to Toronto, I’ve been so busy and zombified that I’ve had no time to think AT ALL.

I feel like a hostage to my own circumstances and (lake of) life and I need to stop. Every night or second night I dream that I’m in a hostage situation and it has to stop!

Had it done for about 5 or 6 years. Made me embrace my body and feel proud of it. Plus, it’s smokin’ hot.

Can’t wait for another opportunity. The problem with being monogamous and bisexual is that when I have a boyfriend I don’t get to enjoy being in a relationship with a girl, and when I have a girlfriend I don’t get to enjoy being in a relationship with a guy.

I’m healthy, have tons of energy, eat amazing exciting, diverse food, and am happy with my ethical choices. Read Becoming Vegetarian for the nutritional info and a bunch of cookbooks for recipes. And then, just practice practice practice!

Had a couple little relapses but generally am not picking nearly as much. I can do it!

Today I bought L’Occitane en Provence 100% shea butter lip stuff. It’s amazing.

Yesterday I hardly picked at all. I haven’t used any gross chapstick in THREE days now and am only using Upper Canada lip butter. Today was hard, since it was horribly freezing cold out and my lips split a bit, so I picked a little but then I made myself stop.

I’m determined to stop doing this. I look mental picking at my face all the time and I’m way too vain to look mental. Now I just have to not pick when I’m in Montreal next week and it’s -30 out…

Thanks to this site and seeing that other people struggle with this twitch too made me feel like I could DO IT.

I put all my chapsticks away and just have my little tub of natural shea butter. Every time I started picking I sat on my hands and then put some shea butter stuff on. I think I went through half a tub in a day but I WASN’T PICKING!!

The most incredible part is that after just one day the colour in my lips is back and they’re not all white and crusty.

Keep up the good work every who has this prob (all 152 of you according to 43things.com)...I am so happy after one day. I can’t wait to kick this weird habit forever! <3

I handed in my second to last late late late paper today. I have a semi-indefinite extension on the other one so that’s okay (for now). I feel like a huge weight has been lifted and I can GET AHEAD.

I go through phases of writing things down (money-wise) and then I get frustrated. I can manage other people’s money just fine (work) but not my own. How does that work?

I never know when bills are due or when billing cycles are. I have to get on this, including paying my bills on time (I don’t even have that many!) and know when my billing and statement cycles are. Maybe I should get a big calendar and post it on the wall? Write a budget for six months at a time?

Also, build a portfolio

I want to “develop” (har har) my abilities and find some “focus” (har har) in my subjects, to identify what interests me and what I look for. Maybe print a little book of pictures.