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but being able to feel I can take it all on would make a big difference on my health. Anxiety is just taking over every fragment of my being and I’m tired of being paranoid and cautious all the time. I want to be free and this hurts so much.

I have way too many things happening in life right now, not to mention the year [including a stroke, miscarriage, and heart attack (Im 19!!)] that I think the stress and anxiety is going to kill me.

i can be totally cool one day, and then BAM, I’m anxious, scared, nervous, angry, afraid, cautious, paranoid and so on. I am so tired of feeling like this, and lately I have actual matters that are so severe that i’m just going out of my mind lately. I have to go to court in 2 days, i think i might be pregnant, i live in a hotel room currently, im supposed to be getting married soon, im 19 years old, i attempted suicide about a week ago over stupidity and broke my fiances cell phone in half when he tried to call 911. i realize what im saying is more severe than stress, i realize i have schizophrenia and im bi polar, but it would really help for some good ways to let go of the stress, i can work on the rest of it myself with a physician.

Anybody out there with a good method of relieving stress?