but, I have no clue where to start! I am now fully aware that I have no self confidence whatsoever. I will never forget when my former crush actually told me that I lacked confidence… it upset me but didn’t surprise me cause I knew it was true. I’d give anything to change that…
yesterday i forgot to write but I did another 440 crunches… today was a write off i feel guilty but i just don’t have it in me tonight… tomorrow i will get back on track!
the past 2 weeks I did not take action on this goal. Today is the firs day I committed to 440 crunches and other minor work outs.
I find myself always wanting to please others, so now its not so much acting the way someone else wants me to, rather its me acting the way i think people want me to act.
I’ve been putting off getting in shape for a while and now that I have made this a goal I can track my progress! This will remain my top priority until June, 9, 2008.
I was unable to forgive for years, I kept grudging and hating and i’ve finally been able to let all of that go. I can’t even describe how free this makes me feel.
I sent them out yesterday! I was really nervous though cause as I was walking to the mail box i noticed the mailman, was coming down the street to collect them! I quickly sped over to the mail box further down the street so he wouldn’t see me drop them off lol. I made 3, 2 were funny but true and one was really serious and embarassing… so now I’m sacred someone I know will see that one and realize it was me who sent it in oy vey!
We finally had a deep meaningful conversation and he told me everything I wanted to hear… but we’re not together because I realized he’s not what I want. People always say pay attention to his actions not his words and I have been doing just that… and I realize that he is not treating me the way I deserve. Sure he’s gorgeous and can be really sweet (when he wants to), but he’s also distant and closed off so thats just not going to work for me. Even though he said he cares about me he sure doesn’t act like it sometimes and now I can finally say that I am okay with that, because I deserve someone better!
I like this guy, and at first I didn’t think he was into me at all. But out of nowhere he called me up and we started talking, nothing really special or anything but I still like him and now I think maybe possibly he might be interested??? I have no idea how to find out if he is, obviously I can just ask him but I don’t want to freak him out we aren’t friends and we haven’t really gotten to know each other on a personal level. Honestly I don’t want to try the friendship angle in my experience it never works so any ideas???
I bought stamps and everything I need to make my postcards today, now to just write them out and send them! This makes me so excited I can’t wait to send them!
once i realized that i wasn’t alone the depression just went away. I’m in a much better place but I know things can still improve which leaves me hopefull!
Me and a friend i was never really that close to had a heart to heart moment and i realized i’m not alone she’s in the same boat as i am and she’s happy so I have no reason not to be happy as well. Also postsecret.com has helped me realize i’m not alone there are a million people out there who have the same fears and dreams as me. I can’t even describe what a relief it is to know that i am not alone!
I think he might be leading me on, we talk and get along but we live far from eachother and i think its easy for him to hide behind work when he’s not interested. Its hard because when its good its great but when its bad i don’t even know where he is… This isn’t the type of relationship I’m looking for but I’ve fallen for him and i just seem to keep on falling…
I have come to the realization that i am understood even if i don’t always feel like it and if i just stop avoiding people when I’m upset then it will be much easier for others to understand me
I grew my hair out to the length i’ve always wanted and then just layered it a bit in the front… the only change i really wanted was the length and now i have it so i am so happy!
I finished the 6th and the 7th in 5 days and i couldn’t belive it took me so long to finally read the 6th one. I can’t wait to read the whole series all over again!
I met daniel and i can honestly say that it was the best moment of my life! now to meet ben and chris!
before… when my goal was to reach 100, i was able to do 30-35 consecutive and now after lowering my goal and practically giving up… i can only do 20, i guess i have alot more work to do before i can complete this goal
I was doing alright on this goal but then i hit a roadblock of sorts… this is going to sound awful but i think i hate my friends. The people i refer to as my best friends are the very same people who make me feel depressed. we don’t call eachother, we don’t spend as much time together as we used to. I feel like our friendship exists only in name.
All my life I have longed for a friend who would be like family to me, someone i could call at anytime of day or night. A person who has the same interests as me, someone who i have to see or speak to everyday, or even everyother day. I know this is a lot to ask for but this perception that i have has distorted my views on friendship and i just don’t think i have true friends because of my high standards. I should just stick the the person in my family who treats me like one of thier best friends… even though i am not thier true best friend… rather i am thier best family member.
I want a small back tattoo sooo bad but I just don’t know about the permanence of it, I had another horrible dream that I went to get my small back tattoo and came back with a massive upper body tattoo that didn’t even work with my personality. It freaked me right out and now I just don’t know if I will ever complete this goal.
