I'm doing 43 things
On the works
2 days ago
I submitted the online application for a trademark in April. Now all I can do is wait. Trademarks are expensive!
G0tj3nn?'s Life List
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1. own a business empire
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2. carpe diem
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3. stop the nightmares
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4. be loved unconditionally
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5. get closer to God
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6. play the flute again
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7. relearn the guitar
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8. learn the constellations
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9. sell off old junk
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10. get a tooth tattoo
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11. overcome depression
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12. develop better stress and time management
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13. be less hostile when spelling and/or grammatical errors are made
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14. be appreciated for being honest
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15. become a certified lifeguard
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16. register a copyright
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17. have a trademark
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18. publish a children's book
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19. prove something
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20. invest wisely
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21. pay off all debt
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22. build a custom motorcycle
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23. have broken nose fixed
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24. get corrective eye surgery
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25. mash grapes for wine
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26. storm chase a tornado
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27. pilot a plane
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28. travel the world
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29. live abroad
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30. celebrate summer solstice at Stonehenge
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31. go deep-sea diving and eat the catch
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32. go camel trekking in the desert
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33. horseback ride the Appalachian Mountains
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34. summit a significant mountain
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35. help sexual abuse victims
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36. have a strong non-profit charity organization
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37. be part of FDoA
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38. practice philanthropy and stewardship
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39. learn ASL
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40. be a polyglot
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41. adopt
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42. fulfill my purpose in life
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43. donate my organs (once I'm dead)
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Recent entries
30 days until I send out my manuscripts!
2 days ago
I intend to publish a picture book and finished writing the rough draft. My goal is to submit my manuscripts by the end of this month, so all I have left is to refine my query letter and the manuscript itself. I hope and pray that someone finds it interesting enough to publish!
Do you have depression?
2 days ago
I took an online quiz to get an idea on whether I met clinical depression symptoms. I understand that taking an online quiz doesn’t replace a diagnosis from a mental health professional, but I had to know if I met the quiz’s requirements.
Do you feel sad or irritable?
Yes, I wouldn’t be taking this quiz if otherwise.
Have you lost interest in activities once enjoyed?
No, but my favorite activities are those that I enjoy alone. These include hiking, jogging…
Have you experienced changes in weight or appetite?
No
Have you experienced changes in sleeping pattern?
Yes, all the time. I tend to wake up every night around 1 or 2AM.
I’m typing this at 3AM!
Do you have feelings of guilt?
Yes, all the time. Then again, I was raised Catholic, so I’m used to these feelings of guilt. :p
Are you unable to concentrate, remember things, or make decisions?
No
...wait, I wasn’t able to concentrate on the question. What was my answer? I tend to work on projects in short time frames because I get distracted easily. So maybe I do.
Have you experienced fatigue or loss of energy?
No
Do you feel hopeless, or worthless?
Yes, everyday.
Have you had thoughts of suicide or death?
Thoughts, yes. But I know that I will NEVER act on suicide. I always tend to think of Dante’s ‘The Divine Comedy’ when I think of suicide, and I know that I want to meet my life purpose of philanthropic work. However, I do not fear death. By the way, I find it hard to see myself ascending to “terrestrial paradise”.
My score indicated that I may be suffering from clinical depression. Surprise! I have visited the uni psychologist years ago and I thought I was “cured”, but maybe ignoring these symptoms have made my case worse.
I’ve always felt insignificant though, since as long as I can remember. I believe it’s due to the constant bullying and teasing throughout elementary, being betrayed by best friends, being rejected from all love interests, never have been asked out. I tried going out and socializing with others, but for some reason I have always found socializing to be difficult. My social skills were never worked on because as college students figured out their identity, I worked full time. I didn’t have time to mature emotionally and socialize. And when I did, I always felt that I can be doing something more productive with my time. I’ve always had low self esteem due to not having anyone build my confidence, so I always depended on myself to pursue my goals. After all, no one else will believe for you if you don’t believe in yourself first. But as I get older, I wake up almost every night (such as right now) thinking about how I should be in a different situation, how I should’ve met my professional goals seven years ago. How I would like to have someone around who cares and genuinely love me for who I am. But I’d imagine that someone to end up cheating on me, so I’m not meant to be happy. I strongly believe that I will end up old, alone, with dogs as my only company, while the only children I will come across are those whom I intend to help. Maybe I should be a martyr… if I can carry my guilt, I can easily carry the guilt of the world on my shoulders.
For me being depressed means you can spend all day in bed, and still not get a good night’s rest
Judith Guest
