griffinchef

I have been on all kinds of different antidepressants at one point or another since I was in my early 20’s (about 17 years). After knowing more about this illness, I realize that I have struggled with Depression since I was a child. I resent how much this illness has taken from my life. Currently, since 2002, I have been on Celexa. I have gained 40 lbs and have felt utterly out of control with it. I have tried every diet, diet pill (even prescription), hypnosis, excerice and am currently doing Weight Watchers, hypnosis and excerice together. In 7 weeks I haven’t even lost my first 5lbs. This is so frustrating! I am super self concious of this and the excess weight has consumed me (no pun intended). Every time I ask my doctor if it’s possible for me to get off of these, he says “no, not with your history”. I just cannot accept that anymore. I HAVE to get off of these. There has got to be a better way. I’m terrified of who I will become off of these meds. My family is supportive, but nervous also. I have done the cold turkey withdrawl, which is not recommended, and it has sent me into rages and terribly ill. I am desperate, but determined to gain control over my life. These things just mask the symptoms. They do not treat the disease. The weight gain causes me depression and I’m afraid possibly Diabeties. I still feel I have low grade depression and I definitely still suffer with anxiety even with the pills. My doctor tells me that every couple of years the meds need to be changed as they lose their effect after a while. I’m done messing about with this. I just want off. I know I need to taper off and I will find a system for that. I don’t feel that I can go to my doctor about this as he does not support my decision. However, I feel that I need his guidance and I’m sure he would rather be involved since I’m going to do it anyway. Maybe he will have some suggestions. One thing I have learned with a doubt is that doctors do not either know or admit that all of these pills cause weight gain (job security?).