grrljr

I had pretty much given up on the idea of quitting for several years. I didn’t bother to try in case I failed. Mostly everyone around me smoked, actually it’s pretty much been that way my whole entire life. I started around the time I turned 17, after resisting it through most of my teenage years, and absolutely hating it during my childhood. Even as a smoker, I always hated the smell of it worst of all, always washing my hands after smoking, trying to keep it off my clothes, etc. I’ve cut down a lot recently and the smell is actually making me sick now. Like having really bad allergies. This is actually motivating me even more, I just want to be over it. I’m using a novel method to make smoking an annoyance to the point that I just want to completely stop it: Twitter. I tweet about my smoking habit, every time I smoke ( sometimes I total them up at the end of the day if I’m being lazy, but still accounting for every one.) It is getting to be such a shameful thing for me to have to post each time I smoke, and to look at my Twitter page and that’s all I’m using it for. Hell, I only joined Twitter on a drunken whim, but I’ve decided to make it into something useful to me and my future.

I really messed this one up, I got more sun the last 3 summers than I could want for a lifetime! Maybe it’s actually good for me.

Next goal is staying in school!!!