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With the economy as bad as it is right now, I am scared. I really am. I am hording my money. I am not going out and doing the things that once made my happy. And it is making me miserable.

I know that there are so many people in the world who have it worse than I do, and they probably think I have no room to complain, and in a way, they’re probably right. It doesn’t stop me from feeling the way I do.

I have an education. I have a job and a house. I am able to pay my bills and live somewhat comfortably. But I think I could be doing so much more with my life. I could get a better job, but I don’t know what I could do other than what I’m already doing.

I just want to have enough money to do the things I need and want to do, and still have a bit left over for a rainy day.

With the economy as bad as it is right now, I am scared. I really am. I am hording my money. I am not going out and doing the things that once made my happy. And it is making me miserable.

I know that there are so many people in the world who have it worse than I do, and they probably think I have no room to complain, and in a way, they’re probably right. It doesn’t stop me from feeling the way I do.

What has worked best for me is exercise. What has been most challenging is sticking to it. The bad economy has made a gym membership expensive, and my odd work schedule has made it hard to get to regularly. I worked out at home this summer and lost 10 pounds in a month or two, but as soon as things got really stressful at work and I dropped almost everything else, exercise became a casualty. Three years ago, I was 30 pounds lighter. I felt good and I think I looked good. I met my boyfriend at that time. He’s still here. Funny thing is that he now wants to lose weight, too. But he has the money to join a gym. I’m afraid to spend money right now.