guanxiaojing

1.钱，是要花的。1千元。报名费。
2.住宿2晚，加上路费和吃喝要500.
3.就是备战。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

1hr per day
morning, run or do it on bed, then shower, then get dressed .

This is what I chose

Tough now, I would like to be called tough, I aways admire this word, though it is not so femine.

Things are very tough for me now. I am now compelled to practice the greatest economy.No, I would never have a chance like I did in Nanning, to hang out with my pink mule at night, nor do I have chances with my dear friends to share several dishes of snail. Not to speak buying something I like…..

Life is difficult for me. But that is what I have been seeking for. The thing reminds me a song, an episode from the famous movie Forrest Gum, How many roads must a man walk down before they call him a man…..That is my opinion,too. Kinda hero-like…

A lot of depression, a lot of pressure ahead to be coped with. Even on a bus in traffic jam, I found myself could not take it easy to get a nap, unstop thinking something, figure out something….That’s stress.

Why the Shenzhen people are different, we see many many young people fighting here…..I think to survive in Shenzhen, the foremost important thing is trusting yourself, or else you will be defeated soon and completely. That is also a reason why the people tend to think big.Also, they need to develop mutiple-thinking. Things changed when it comes with such a ultra-competitive environment. So, be eyes-open and brave, that’s the best solution I figuered out at the moment.

刚算了一下，我的经济状况非常糟糕，我已经面临要饿死了。
方案一：我9月份才开始领工资，因为8月份11日来上班，也就是少了10天，估计我只能得到2000元。两千元按照月初付房租的原则， 我要付8、9月的房租，就是1800元，如果是这样，我就只剩200元，若是扣税后不足2000，而且水电网线都算上，估计还不够。
9月结余为负数：在200元范围。

方案二：如果只支付1300的房租，意味着，下次10月15日，也还是要交1400，也就是到10月中为止，给了3个月的房租，从11月起，月中给房租900元，水电月末交，这样才稍微正常。需跟房东谈判。
2000-1300=700， 九月份，两次广州行，200+200=400 吃喝即使按7元一天 也要210.手机。通讯费，都没办法有盈余。
10月份，过了7天假期，10.15发钱，3000-1400，剩1600， 不知道是否要上课。看课表安排。
若3次课，略有盈余。约200元左右，补贴上月。

11月份中，还是3000元。
。。。。。。
12月份3500，略好转。
或者搬家住比较差的地方？

目前负债：
何：5000
高：10000+5000+2500
禤：4000
Chen：1300
若干水电费估计500.
合计28300

facing many difficulties ahead,
especially I found that someone study in other major in overseas can translate better than I ,and he is very serious at this job, and he is smart and what makes me feel even worse is that he know theories of translation more than I do(actually i dont know any).so sad.

seems I can never have it done in my life… hopeless I feel ,depressed, and sad

I am so fed up with populated cities and countries, I can’t live like that all my life. It doesn’t necessarily mean I need to marry a foreign man, I will try my best to live as an independent lady. I can teach Chinese somewhere or serve as a translator, I know English, and French, then. maybe some Spanish too. I would love to spend my life doing that sort of jobs and wandering around the world or get somebody to love to spend my life with,or I will just live alone with books.

I want to love somebody, and be loved by him too. I can share a lot of things with him, be nice with him, kisses him, it would be great to fall in love with some one.

start from small goals:
1.be the top one of the University.
you can prove it through your essays, your pronounciation and your translation skills, you have to show out.
2.be the top one of Shenzhen.
first you need to get a job in a translation company, then you need to get a good job.

it takes a while to form the idea.
I found sleepy,but I can’t sleep, I need time to improve ….....

they,anyone of my friends, my familiy members does not trust me, they don’t think I can become an interpreter, they think I am just wasting my time.
what should I do? and what can I do? just keep learning, keep doing it, hey, do I believe that I can ?I should believe myself since I am the only one believe myself.Go,let them down!

I wanna be beautiful, sexy,smart.
I will make myself more looked like a charming lady,rather than a lovily girl.It is my time.

It should be my first goal, most important goal.
That’s why I go for sz,that’s why I pay my tuition,that’s what I have been dreaming about for years!
I love this job, and I am so eager to become an interpreter, it is my life,how can someone does not love his life??

It is not easy to do it in ultra competitive SZ. At last I decided not to work in Gzh,since I have no friends there.So I keep looking in SZ. This is a difficult year for many Chinese companies, many companies are thinking of fire empoyees rather than hire some. The job I found is not very good, I mean the pay, but I enjoy doing this job, mainly about helping domestic and foreign designers to understand each other, so ,that’s it. And one more important issue is I am really a goal oriented person, I really wanna a job,I work hard on searching for a job and I don’t have very high expectations,that’s why I got a job.

Hey,I know it is very difficult for me,especially now,
I am a bit worried about getting a job in sz,
what can I do?
an assistant? yes,I think I can do it well, but I am not sure I will be granted the chance,
kind of luck things,
oh, do I really have no responsibility of that?
I need to fully prepare,100%, then the chance will be mine.

since I am leaving,
I couldnot bring with me so many books, they are too heavy for me,so I have to give them up.

finally I decided to move to sz.
partially encouraged by my friends in sz.
and Partially because I don’t feel happy here.
I wanna work in big cities and continued my study there.
post graduate study is always my dream.

I know this time I have no turning back.

Life will prove its difficulty to me when I get to sz, I believe, I have to prepare for the worst.

I am sending my resumes out,but no reply yet, a little bit frustrated.

no intrests in it

Manuel, I fell in love with him deeply,
I want to be with him badly and wanna improve myself to catch up with him

I am cofindent to find the man I love,and he loves me too

1.get myself a good hair cut tomorrow, I will let my hair fall down on my shoulders, and take a good care of it.
2.wear high heel shoes as often as possible.
3.improve myself, be committed to qulity