haemin

well, how things have changed. nursing school plans changed to Physician Assistant school plans, which then changed to “let’s wait and see” plans. i’m totally at peace with this, but yeah.. my plan to get a wrist tattoo get put on hold too. i did quit my job, but now i’m in another corporate environment, albeit a more relaxed one.

the desire is still there, and i think i’ve come up with a good idea too. the hebrew word “chesed” which means grace/mercy/lovingkindness. it doesn’t have a direct translation to english, but it is demonstrated in God’s unchanging and unending grace displayed towards the Israelites of the OT. they turn away from him, forget about his goodness, but always come crawling back. God has every right to punish or kill them for their disobedience, but he always takes them back. there are consquences for sure, but he always ALWAYS takes them back. that same grace, love, and mercy is still alive today, b/c no matter what i do or how i try to run away, God always takes me back. and i know deep down that the safest and most loving place to be is beside him.

this is Chesed…

i haven’t been doing this in a while, but it’s one of those lifelong goals that i’ll be pursuing forever, so i think i can take it off my list now. in the past 8 years, i’ve been to Korea, Mexico, Kazahkstan, Russia, El Salvador, England, Spain, Germany, Scotland, and Puerto Rico. I’ve tried local food in all those places and met some good people and new friends. I hope to continue doing this for as long as I live – it’s definitely worth doing!

i’m not madly in love yet, and it’s probably a good thing, b/c i’m realizing that being IN love is not enough. you have to be in love with the RIGHT person! currently i’m developing interest for a wonderful man who is so utterly and completely UNavailable. but the more i spend time with him, the more i like him. but there’s nothing i can do without violating a majority of my and his moral codes. so i’m glad i’m not in love with him, but i do need to be careful… really careful.