harrowing

This is huge for me. I did own my own business about 11 years ago and then went into business with another companey. Did that ever spell doom! I will never again let let another person make choices for me. It cost me my business and I have lost 11 years working for some one else. I am going to start a new business for myself and my family! It will be successful and be under MY leadership.

I have a diaster relationship with God. Every time I have a diaster I become very close to him. Then when things seemingly get better I forget to stay in touch. I want to have all lifes blessings bestowed upon me that God is willing to provide me but I think I get in the way of them by not letting our relationship grow more. I am basically one step forward and three steps back. I know that this is not pleasing to God. I need to better this area of my life for myself and my family.