hazeltov

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I'm doing 34 things
 

hazeltov's Life List

  1. 1. play guitar + write a song
    2 entries . 6 cheers
    1 person
  2. 2. clarify my values
    26 entries . 3 cheers
    22 people
  3. 3. Detox for next 2 weeks, starting Monday
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    1 person
  4. 4. love my work
    4 entries . 4 cheers
    38 people
  5. 5. acquire my personal fortune ethically and joyfully
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    1 person
  6. 6. Ace the LSAT
    2 entries . 4 cheers
    43 people
  7. 7. find my spiritual home and live there.
    1 entry . 5 cheers
    1 person
  8. 8. get a PhD
    1 entry . 4 cheers
    2,775 people
  9. 9. Follow through
    5 entries . 2 cheers
    152 people
  10. 10. lose 10 lbs + run 10 k + 100 cruches + 50 push ups
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    1 person
  11. 11. skyline trail
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    1 person
  12. 12. clarify goals
    2 entries . 4 cheers
    1 person
  13. 13. make connections with influential people who like me, value and respect my work, want me to succeed, and help me to do so in a concrete way.
    5 entries . 4 cheers
    1 person
  14. 14. Claim my power
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    2 people
  15. 15. Finish my thesis December 1, 2009
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    1 person
  16. 16. use my bike as transit
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    1 person
  17. 17. do what I love
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    102 people
  18. 18. live with courage
    2 entries . 2 cheers
    2 people
  19. 19. write a personal mission statement
    2 entries
    230 people
  20. 20. stand up for myself
    6 entries . 3 cheers
    906 people
  21. 21. travel the world
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    18,499 people
  22. 22. be authentic
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    59 people
  23. 23. submit my poems to journals (monthly)
    26 people
  24. 24. touch the depth and the nature of my ground of being
    2 entries
    1 person
  25. 25. reach
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    3 people
  26. 26. make a difference
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    6,767 people
  27. 27. improve my french
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    1,351 people
  28. 28. make my parents proud
    1,453 people
  29. 29. journal my dreams
    6 entries . 2 cheers
    29 people
  30. 30. identify my strengths
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    8 people
  31. 31. learn to cook. Really cook.
    1 entry
    1,746 people
  32. 32. set up work space
    1 person
  33. 33. do the right thing
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    92 people
  34. 34. Convince 43 43Thingers to donate to the International Rescue Committee's campaign to help victims of brutal, systematic rape in Congo.
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    7 people

How I did it
How to forgive, let go, move on
It took me
4 months
It made me
confident & free


How to accept myself unconditionally
It took me
3 years
It made me
feel sane.


How to love my home
It took me
3 months
It made me
safe, happy & free


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Recent entries
journal my dreams (read all 6 entries…)
Untitled 1 week ago

Odd dream – I’m touring these luxurious homes with terraces of hot tubs and some latter promise of return – meanwhile, I see an x-friend of mine riding by on a bike with her stupid little dog in the basket. In my dream – all I can think is – you phoney, trendy, nitwit – which was essentially my reason for ending the friendship.

Latter, I am crossing the lawn of a large estate to join the people I’m supposed to be meeting with—

No idea what this means, but I suspect it indicates that my self esteem is improving. In the past, the spaces I would occupy in my dreams were utterly destitute.



journal my dreams (read all 6 entries…)
Untitled 2 weeks ago

I am sickened to realize that my dream was an absolute portent of what was to follow. I am wondering if anyone else is noticing the same thing. I wrote the dream about being introduced to the woman-hating serial killer awhile back – the iconography of which is so lame, that I hesitated to put it down.

When I read it over, months latter – it was a clear warning of everything that followed, and I really think interpreting this dream, or at least documenting it, really helped to prepare for the worst that was to follow.

The man I’m working with on my thesis – who pursued me, to work with him – is really out to bust my chops. The only reason I over-road my feelings about him, and my intuition about his personality – is because I wanted some security in my working life, and he was offering it, in a way – funding, publishing opportunties, etc.

AS SOON as I signed on the dotted line, so to speak – he turned into an absolute evil bastard. I think he wants to sabotage my work, but of course I only sound like a paranoid freak saying that. I’m not. The reality is that narcisistic freaks abound, and if they feel threatened by your talent or your strength, and seek power and control over you – it is all very apparent. And let’s not be naive people – humans are aggressive. It’s part of our nature – some people are just lower on the evolutionary chain than others.



Clarify my values (read all 26 entries…)
daily. 2 weeks ago

Sometimes, I just like to review this list and these many entries to remind myself about what I care about.



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