Odd dream – I’m touring these luxurious homes with terraces of hot tubs and some latter promise of return – meanwhile, I see an x-friend of mine riding by on a bike with her stupid little dog in the basket. In my dream – all I can think is – you phoney, trendy, nitwit – which was essentially my reason for ending the friendship.
Latter, I am crossing the lawn of a large estate to join the people I’m supposed to be meeting with—
No idea what this means, but I suspect it indicates that my self esteem is improving. In the past, the spaces I would occupy in my dreams were utterly destitute.
Nov 02, 02:09PM PST | 0 comments
I am sickened to realize that my dream was an absolute portent of what was to follow. I am wondering if anyone else is noticing the same thing. I wrote the dream about being introduced to the woman-hating serial killer awhile back – the iconography of which is so lame, that I hesitated to put it down.
When I read it over, months latter – it was a clear warning of everything that followed, and I really think interpreting this dream, or at least documenting it, really helped to prepare for the worst that was to follow.
The man I’m working with on my thesis – who pursued me, to work with him – is really out to bust my chops. The only reason I over-road my feelings about him, and my intuition about his personality – is because I wanted some security in my working life, and he was offering it, in a way – funding, publishing opportunties, etc.
AS SOON as I signed on the dotted line, so to speak – he turned into an absolute evil bastard. I think he wants to sabotage my work, but of course I only sound like a paranoid freak saying that. I’m not. The reality is that narcisistic freaks abound, and if they feel threatened by your talent or your strength, and seek power and control over you – it is all very apparent. And let’s not be naive people – humans are aggressive. It’s part of our nature – some people are just lower on the evolutionary chain than others.
Oct 26, 05:19PM PDT | 0 comments
Sometimes, I just like to review this list and these many entries to remind myself about what I care about.
Oct 26, 05:04PM PDT | 0 comments
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