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1. Stop picking my skin
52 entries . 7 cheers 665 people
2. Be on time
18 entries . 2 cheers 944 people
3. Keep in touch with the people who are important to me
4 entries . 4 cheers 5 people
4. Read the books I have before buying new ones
9 entries . 5 cheers 25 people
5. Practise Yoga
8 entries . 2 cheers 55 people
6. Learn Polish
3 cheers 449 people
7. Improve my Russian
1 entry . 2 cheers 78 people
8. Feel the fear and do it anyway
6 cheers 446 people
9. be able to tell people where I work without feeling uncomfortable
2 entries . 4 cheers 1 person
10. Dance
3 cheers 2,324 people
11. Visit a foreign city for every letter of the alphabet
3 entries . 1 cheer 38 people
12. Spend more time doing the things I enjoy
4 cheers 2 people
13. Manage my finances
11 entries 41 people
14. Be true to myself and behave with good grace
3 cheers 1 person
15. Keep up my German
1 entry . 3 cheers 1 person
16. Buy my own place
3 entries . 3 cheers 82 people
17. Do my foot physio
1 entry . 1 cheer 1 person
18. Finish my Icelandic embroidery
1 entry . 1 cheer 1 person
19. Finish my holiday photo albums
2 entries 1 person
20. Eat Breakfast every day
3 entries . 1 cheer 240 people
21. take 43 self portrait photographs where you cannot see my face
1 cheer 87 people
22. climb helvellyn
3 people
23. Bake more
3 entries . 1 cheer 234 people
24. Write thank you letters
1 entry . 3 cheers 8 people
25. Complete the MoodGym Training Program
4 people
26. Walk more often
4 entries . 2 cheers 37 people
27. Use the notebooks I buy
6 entries . 1 cheer 2 people
28. Take photos of the cranes at Wallsend before they disappear
3 cheers 1 person
29. Declutter
3 entries . 1 cheer 763 people
30. Try a new recipe each month
4 entries 9 people

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stop picking my skin (read all 52 entries…)

a bad day 2 weeks ago

I’ve picked and picked at my face today, until it looked so bad that I didn’t want to leave the house. Then I was left with a feeling of self-disgust. It was beautiful day. I had things to do. So why do I do this to myself?

Nov 07, 06:08PM PST | 0 comments

stop picking my skin (read all 52 entries…)

When did I stop trying to stop? 4 months ago

It’s nine months since I last wrote an entry here. I’ve still been reading entries here fairly regularly. I didn’t make a conscious decision to give up on this, but I might as well have. Lately the picking has got very bad again. Constant. Deliberately in front of the mirror and as a nervous habit everywhere else. My skin is a mess, especially my chin, where it’s scabby, scarred and infected. It’s a vicious circle. I’m feeling very low at the moment, about may aspects of my life, and the worse I feel the more I pick. The more I pick the worse I look. The worse I look the worse I feel. It’s got to the stage where I have considered phoning in sick for work because of the state of my skin. I haven’t – which is probably as well as I would have just stayed home and picked. I don’t know how to get past this.

Jul 26, 03:32PM PDT | 0 comments

buy my own place (read all 3 entries…)

Untitled 9 months ago

I’ve been saving well but because of the current economic situation feel like the goal posts keep moving. House prices are going down, but to get a mortgage I will probably need a bigger deposit.

As much as I want to live on my own, I still have a fear if taking the leap and actually getting a mortgage. I think I need to work on my confidence as much as I do on my financial situation. I really need to tackle this. At least I am serious about saving now, and I keep looking at the property pages in the local paper. My next step is to go and speak to financial advisor about how much I could borrow.

Jan 31, 04:17AM PST | 0 comments

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