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  2. 1. Periodically reflect on at least 5 things for which I'm grateful
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  3. 2. stay cool because this world might be an illusion
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  4. 3. think only in the moment
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  5. 4. let the 'powers of the universe' attract what I need
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  6. 5. attract good karma.
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  7. 6. do something nice for someone every day
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  8. 7. pay off my credit card
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  9. 8. become a better person
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  10. 9. be happy
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  11. 10. Get rid of 43 household belongings
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  12. 11. find someway of entertaining myself
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  13. 12. stop biting my fingernails stop
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  14. 13. learn to replace my toilet and taps in bathroom
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  15. 14. debate with myself on whether i should lose weight
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  16. 15. practice 'law of attraction'
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  17. 16. Living with integrity means:
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  18. 17. be anomynously kind to someone
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  19. 18. compile a 100-things-about-me list
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  20. 19. create a dry riverbed in my front yard
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  21. 20. identify 10 things that make me who I am
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  22. 21. find joy in just being quiet
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  23. 22. practice detachment
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  24. 23. own a morris minor
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  25. 24. stop worrying
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  26. 25. reflect daily in a 'one sentence' journal
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  27. 26. come out of my comfort zone
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  28. 27. learn to dance
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  29. 28. learn that there is a reason for everything
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  30. 29. just breath when I feel overwhelmed
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  31. 30. no more mindless shopping
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  32. 31. quotes
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  33. 32. practice "the power of now"
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  34. 33. un-numb
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un-numb
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i don’t want to argue, yell or fight with anyone
there is a lot of surpressed feeling in this house
door slamming, muttering and all my life i have shut all my feelings inside somewhere i feel heavy, sad, unloved
there is nowhere to go so every weekend i just sit on the couch and watch tv my only hope is to sell my house, making everyone leave and find a place at the lake for me and my dogs
so i am waiting again for the future to make my happy but the solutions should be ‘what can i do today to uplift me?’
i am so tired of just existing, not reacting or trying to not react
eating not because i’m hungry but because i’m bored
sleeping because i’m bored, afraid to try anything
and now i am too fat to go the gym, my gym clothes don’t fit
all excuses i know

Feb 05, 08:03AM PST | 0 comments


debate with myself on whether i should lose weight
166 pounds...

I’m not working for the summer and am really not doing much each day. So I am slowly gaining fat around my middle and I know it takes a lot of energy and dedication to get rid of it. My favourite imte of day is after 9 pm when everyone in my house settles in their spots. I think about what I would like to eat. This is my entertainment and of course TV! I tried to visualize me as thin and how would I feel and what would it bring. Dont’ know.

Jul 21, 07:29PM PDT | 0 comments


find someway of entertaining myself
weekends are soo-oo-o-o long

there’s nothing to do and nowhere to go
once the snow melts I can do a major cleanup of the yard
I’ve already decluttered my bedroom and just waiting for the rest
I’ve been thinking of going to a show by myself

Apr 09, 2011, 04:02PM PDT | 0 comments


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find the symbol for my next tattoo pass biology fall in love again createkg wants to Lose 30 pounds be more patient Share a night under the stars Lose Weight and Get Healthy Run around town in a bear suit learn to play bass guitar visit every MLB stadium write music watch the IMDB.com Top 100 movies play the game halo online make a free layout for my imvu home page Lolly wants to get rid of things I don't need financial independence Appreciate people for who they are lose 20 lbs Read every Far Side Comic Strip stop procrastinating hotwire a car lose weight meditate daily be more outgoing celebrate my benign schizophrenia Buy a House Clean out my closet.
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