heazyn

i think we both agreed this time that it wasnt right. something was still missing. maybe we should just give it a little bit more time.. we’re still friends :)
at the same time, oscar want me, and now my friends ex want me too! And my stalker is getting pretty dan creepy… I was actually Scared today. Hmm, who else. I guess Morgan. He’s nice, but he’s more like, friend materlial. Then ofcourse Kauka, my exs friend, as well as my friends ex. It’s all a complicated mess. Maybe I should write a book about it..

At first i was sad when i found out my “ex” had a new girlfriend already, i was even more upset when i noticed she was the girl he hung out with Alot wduring the time he was with me. Then I realized he’s a real damn ass. And I feel sorry for his new girl, really, and if I’ll cry, I’ll cry for her. That spell, that control he still had over me is now gone.
I wanted to be the one who got a bf before he did, to rub something in his face and take some revenge for what he did, because I know I’m better than him. He IS a scumbag. But no, that’s not worth it. Even though revenge would be awesome I don’t wan to get a bf for that purpose. Instead I’m gonna take it slower and find a good person, not just the first that comes along. I deserve happiness.

And, I might have found someone. New fredde :p
Kind, super sweet, caring, relaxed, hot, hot, HOT, beautiful blue eyes, wonderful smile, gentleman, he sweetest thing really.
I was at his place for the weekend, two nights, and he was just the sweetest thing. He made me feel relaxed, and I’m never relaxed. But I felt I could be myself around him. We live realy close to one another as well. :) I’ve really been missing the warmth of another body close to me. I like him :3

It was almost as love at first sight. I had seen hime a few times before, but this time, i walked right up to him, looked right into his eyes and some crazy feeling said that this is The Guy, THE ONE. I’m gonna marry him!
I laughed away those thoughts but I still remember them. The spell cast at that moment only lasted for a few seconds, but now it’s rebuilding. I think I’m falling in love again.. Not just there yet, I’m still not over my heartbreak, but this guy!! I’m going to move slower this time, get to know him. Yeah :)
He’s under my skin :3

I wanna spread my wings and lift high into the skyyyyy
alright, exaggerations put aside, I’m really tired and I’m gonna go to bed now, gnight!