I really can’t believe it!! It’s exciting, I’m starting to feel a lot different now, like a more decent human being. Those perverted thoughts, and memories are fading away more and more each day.
J's Life List
1. be more social
2. Grow in Christ
3. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness
4. witness the end of McDonald's
Haven’t been here in a while. I’m starting to feel frustrated, and guilty again. It’s crazy!! I’ve had enough trouble fighting off the bad thoughts during the day. Now lately I’ve been having wet dreams. Last night it happened twice, and it’s really getting me worried. This has never happened to me before until I started to quit. Now I’m having a difficult time getting those dreams out of my head, and when I do I soon end up with another random dream. Why the crap is this happening!? Sometimes it feels like maybe i still have the desire subconsciously, idk. The last thing i want to do is think about porn, and end up failing again but it keeps invading my mind, and now my dreams. Masturbation is not an option, I just want these memories out of my friggin head completely!
I’m back on my 21st day streak! Feelin great right now. I think I’m starting to put my faith in God more, and It feels like a weight’s been lifted off of me. Since last year I was horribly deppressed, and confused about why I was trapped in this habitual sin. And no matter how many times I repented, I’d end up going right back to it again. Recently, I came across a few videos on youtube about true repentance, and I thought it might be helpful to someone here too. “How Do I Repent? Tim Conway” – [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vU0TTQTvLw&feature=relmfu], and
“True Repentance” – [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGEcj2K04ZI&feature=related], and ” Holy Spirit And Perfection” -[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MdNNzxzVnf0]