hitherme

As i read the entries on this site-it amazes me how young the writers/hopeful are. You want to be married, to lighten up, and do other things that will naturally come in time. Enjoy your angst, your passions that drive others nuts, enjoy your anxiety, your relationships that will utltimately fail, and enjoy your unknowledgeable self. You are learning, by doing. Cry and laugh, cheer and sigh, rise and fall-but always get back up. By pulling ourselves up from every pit, we become wiser. With every pain in our life is growth. I hate the fact that i know this, but i do. I’m only 35 and so much pain has made me so wise in some aspects. Don’t rush life-just hold on and take it all in.

I truly believe that preparation is the key to this goal. I smoked for almost 20 years and i decided to quit this year. I read alot about the hazards, the effects to my body, to others, etc. I read and understood the things i denied before. This took at least a month. I set a quit date, and the night before i got rid of ashtrays, cigarettes, i even put pouporri (sp) in the ashtray of my Jeep. I made sure to not even have a butt left in my reach without paying for it or groveling. I went on the patch, i suffered for maybe a week-the first 3 days being my own personal hell-then i patted myself on the back and went forward to acheive more smoke free days. Also download a quit meter for your computer. It keeps track of money saved, life saved, cigs not smoked etc. I hate to think of my quit meter going to zero-it tracks hours, days, months, minutes and seconds and let me tell ya, i am not going back to day 1-that sucked big time. Never again.

If you know when ya get paid, i mean if you have a job otherwise it’s the first of the month right? Then mark the calendar with paydays and bill due dates…with a markie marks alot marker. Fuck the computer bs-you mess up the program or the system crashes and your goal is messed up. When ya get paid, pay all bills that due before or 5 days after your next pay day. Simple.

That dog is so freaking cute i just wanna kiss my screen