holly316

well i have been trying to start getting ready for bed by 10:30 so that at 11 on the dot i can go to my room and read a little instead of getting sucked in to the news or other 11:00 shows. i’ve been doing a little better but still end up getting to bed closer to midnite. i’m going to keep trying to move it a little bit earlier every day or at least every week. it’s so hard tho. i’m definitely a tv addict. it’s a nice distraction from worrying about everything i have going on in the world.

it seemed to be going so well for a few days but i still haven’t been able to stop this. this tends to be a stressful time of year in general and lately i am just furiously biting my cheeks and fingers. i just can’t stop. i really think medication might be the only answer for me at this point but with the bad experiences i’ve had with that i don’t think i will consider it at this point. i’m going to try therapy again, i’ve moved recently so i am a little weary of starting over with someone new but i think i need it. i’ll let you know if i find a way to stop.

well, unfortunately a side effect of less cheek-biting is that i suddenly started chewing my nails again. i have found over the years that if i keep polish on my nails at all times i don’t bite. so it was pretty stupid to take off the polish the day before i decided to quit my cheek-biting. so i had a little relapse. but i’m gonna do my nails ASAP and try to get back on track.