honbun

...i feel like he’s losing the will to want to be with me whatever it takes.

Like he’s exhausted from the struggle to be together. It’s just not the way we were a few years ago. So i’m getting prepared for the “i really can’t do this anymore” speech, and then my heart will explode. But no one will hear it cos my heart’s not meant to be with him anyway…

I have to keep feigning indifference…that’s the way of illegitimate love, if such a thing exists…..sigh….

...i need to get on it and get my license already. I’ve been driving for about 10years now but have never owned a full license. Lady luck’s definitely on my side ‘cos I’ve never once been pulled over.

Anyways, I’ve got all these plastic cards in my purse, credit cards, ID cards, gym and other membership cards but i still sense the void….the driver’s license should be in there somewhere.

So for the love of plastic….i will do this and i will do it real soon!

...this is on my list of goals as I’ve not bought a lottery ticket in 4yrs, so pray tell am I going to win the lottery? How?