honeyandwine

Over the last year, the question I have been asking myself for a long time now (i.e, whether this goal is possible) has yielded different answers along the way.

At times, I have tried not to believe in everlasting love. I have tried to reject it, to save myself disappointment and wry feelings for believing something that may not be true.

Trying not to believe didn’t work, because in my heart, I did believe. And I could not waver from this core belief that true love that endures all things is possible.

And today, I can say that it is possible to find that person who is closer to you sometimes more than you are to yourself and that you are closer to than he is to himself at times. It is true. It can happen. It has happened.

It’s not even that I need another person in my life to feel complete, because I don’t. It’s just that Love is one of the most amazing things in the world.

Sometimes I can be ‘tardedly insensitive and you have to tell me so. I am so happy that you tell me so. It makes me do better and try harder to support you, please you and make you smile (and I know it’s difficult for you to talk about things like that because you’re so giving and wonderful). It makes me happy to play a part in your happiness…I don’t know if I communicated this very well, so I hope you get it, baby.

has changed my life. I’ve allowed love into my life and continue to open the aperture of my heart a little more, bit by bit. I want to be wide open to receive all that love has to give, taking in all of its light. It still scares me sometimes, but, all in all, I would be more afraid not to let love enter, for the regret of what would have been missed in this life if I had remained stubborn and closed. Today I am more open to love than I was yesterday. And so the progression continues.