honeybee7

ok so i cant completely re decorate my room but i want to personalise it so that its really interesting and shows who i am, i like all those small little things like the bits on the top of fizzy drink cans he he i just want small ideas using things like that to make my room more interesting, any ideas?

i know i shouldnt be feeling like this, i liked him before we even started talking, for some reason i was just atracted to him despite the fact that i didnt know him. And even then i knew he wasnt right for me and knew that if i did get to know him i would only end up hurt, because thats who he is. And everybody who knows him or has herd of him knows it, not many people like him and i was warned about him so much.
When we started talking it was the best feeling ever, it was like i didnt deserve to be talking to him even though he isnt a nice person, he’s not particurlarly clever and to be honest, not even that good looking. But i was so in to him i couldnt stop thinking about him, it was like he made my life worth living and he was the reason i actually enjoyed getting up in the morning, because i knew i might see him.
But we got close, we talked a lot! and even in the middle of the night i would get texts from him and it would make me actually smile so much. We were sort of seing each other, but i never actually got to see him that much so it was hard. And then one day out of the blue, i know it sounds pathetic but i noticed on facebook that his relationship status had changed, and he was in a relationship with a girl called Jasmine. I couldnt quite believe it at first, but then it was the most believable thing ever, i knew it would happen, i had warned myself, and other people had warned me.
I left it a couple of days and i didnt hear from him, and though i know how needy it sounds now, i text him. I had to find out what he had to say. It wasnt much, aparently it wasnt planned they had just been friends. And now if it was ok with me he wanted us to be friends.
I cant get him off my mind and i think i am in love with him, even though he hurt me, and i know i cant have him. I am so young and i know i dont know what love really means, and i dont want to be in love with him but i cant help thinking that i am.
I dont know what to do, everything reminds me of him, i sound so stupid and i can even see that myself but i didnt choose this, i tried to talk myself out of it before it got too seriouse but i just couldnt. And now i feel so lost!
What do i do?

ive had a really good day today, its only little things but they all add up and im feeling really happy!