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well, i accomplished my 40 days and added an additional 3 days to it. whoa – 43 days :) NICE. i wanted to keep going through the weekend because i figured it would be easier to keep a strict post-cleanse diet through the work week. today i drank some oj. i actually juiced oranges and tangelos. it’s really sweet and i’m missing the spice from the cayenne. i can’t believe i never got sick of the lemonade! i really loved it. whew. you know what i’m really happy to saying bye to? that damn swf and the senna…ugh. i couldn’t handle anymore of that stuff. BARF!

hmmm…i dunno what to say? i have absolutely loved doing this cleanse. there were times when it was rough, but at the same time i knew that if i gave in to any cravings i would’ve regretted it entirely.

for all the people who’ve done the mc before…

i would love to hear any advice or words of wisdom from your post cleanse experiences. things you wish you had done or regretting doing, etc. i am still pretty nervous about eating again. i don’t want to screw up!

congrats to all of you who have started your cleanse – it DOES get easier :)

0 days left ;)

i’m doing this for a few reasons…

-i want to be a doctor. at least i think that is what i want. i am currently going to school to become a surg tech. i feel these two steps will help me realize what becoming a doctor really means – working in hospitals, being around patients & their families, etc. i just think it will be a good experience before diving into 10+ years of school :)

-i need to work at night if i decide to go to med school. my job is currently a day job. when i get my st degree it will allow me to work nights.

anyway…it’s basically to get my foot in the door.

i’ve already contacted a hospital in my area…we’ll see how that goes.

hello day 38 :)

i’ve been kind of bummed out lately. i’m one of those people who has a hard time letting go of things. well, i think everyone has that problem to some extent…

i fall into funks really easily i guess. mostly when things end. like, vacation. yes, i get really upset and anxious after vacation. i am not sure how to explain that? not because i’m sad that the vacation is over and i have to go back to work…it’s more like i get really nervous that something bad is going to happen. i dunno…it’s hard to explain.

so, anyway…my point is that i’m sad that this cleanse is ending for me. i actually want to keep going. but, of course i want to be a better version of me & if i kept going all that would do is create a new ‘problem’. so, that is what i’m dealing with right now.

some things i do know for sure…

exercise is a must for me. i feel so different when i make exercise a priority in my life.

keeping my environment ‘clean’. it really changes my attitude when it is really messy or really clean.

doing things for myself that are good for me (yoga, reading, journaling, hiking, sleeping, etc)

well, that’s what i got for today.

2 days left