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1. decrease my BMI
5 entries . 6 cheers 2 people
2. lose weight
4 entries . 1 cheer 36,316 people
3. stop/do more self harm
1 entry . 2 cheers 4 people
4. stop fucking things up
3 entries . 4 cheers 4 people
5. stop feeling like i have to lie
5 entries . 12 cheers 1 person
6. finish writing my book
1 entry . 5 cheers 457 people
7. be free from myself
3 entries . 6 cheers 2 people
8. Stop hurting people
1 entry . 4 cheers 30 people
9. ask for help
4 entries . 10 cheers 31 people
10. write poetry
1 entry . 4 cheers 727 people
11. Be a better friend
4 cheers 5,979 people
12. want to live/exist
1 entry . 2 cheers 1 person
13. be loved
2 entries . 3 cheers 1,856 people
14. be happy
3 entries . 3 cheers 21,833 people
15. identify 100 things that make me happy.
12 entries . 1 cheer 2,251 people
16. not have myalgic encephalopathy
1 entry 1 person
17. say sorry
2 entries . 2 cheers 59 people
18. SLEEP...sleep better, sleep longer, sleep more, sleep earlier
2 entries . 4 cheers 267 people
19. cry
3 entries . 2 cheers 318 people
20. run away
1 entry . 1 cheer 1,080 people
21. stop secretly hyperventilating all the time
3 entries . 3 cheers 1 person

Recent entries

be free from myself (read all 3 entries…)

thinking 17 months ago

when i thought i was free, i was only kidding myself. sometimes i only realise i’m not free, when i’m alone. you might think thats when you should be most free, but thats when i am most trapped. i am caged by myself. you would think i would treat myself kindly, maybe positive prisoner/guard relationship would occur. but i’m neither prisoner or guard, i’m just one symbiotic lump and nothing is going to separate.
so i suppose really this is silly.
i mean is there any point in a goal you know you can’t achieve??

Jun 10, 2008, 02:34PM PDT | 1 comment

be loved (read all 2 entries…)

?? 17 months ago

is it selfish to want to be loved?
i have so many more things than other people and i am grateful, yet i stil want more…
do i want too much???

Jun 08, 2008, 07:54AM PDT | 1 cheer | 3 comments

stop secretly hyperventilating all the time (read all 3 entries…)

changing my mind 17 months ago

ok so the last time i hyperventilated i actually wish someone was there despite all of what i said in my entry ages ago. it was scary. it was really really scary and i was home alone and no-one could help me. i just wish someone had been there to hold my hand and tell me it was gonna be ok and then hold me when i could breath again.

Jun 08, 2008, 07:48AM PDT | 0 comments

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